I’m there loving you but you treated me wrong. So you will never know what I my heart can give. You walked away from me. This night I called out for you but you never turned around. You walked out of my life. You say I lost something great but its you who lost.

You lose

Dead and gone dead and all alone dead I am a man touched by god . As we
pass two strangers in the moment making eye contact wishing each other
were dead and gone
And with the sound of thunder ringing through my ears my chest fills
with blood.
And to my knees I drop and my knees I pray for not another day.
Because i`ve traveled this road to long just trying to find my way back
home. And as I look to to the east and there is no one by my side. I
look the west and there is no one in sight. I look to the sky and say
bring me home.

Two sides to every coin.

The weight of a relationship carried only by one. The weight of a relationship carried by two . To be told you are great and then told you are not enough which do you believe which do know to be true.

The one you’re told more or the one you’re told so in frequent.

 

 

I’m not perfect I’m not the greatest. This I’ve been reminded of many times through out my life. I’ve had riches of a king and the wealth of a bum. I’ve gone to sleep hungry I’ve awoken full. And as I now walk this earth lonely again often looking back . Thinking what if as I look at the roads one takes in life. And if my past wishes to find me and love me again follow the trail of tears I leave behind for you.

 

Went to the museum  today had a great time. Just some of the things i saw.

The realist things  I never wrote

But the greatest thing I ever quote.

Today was a good day I cried I laughed I felt pain I felt love I felt life.

In the palm of my hands I saw my future.

I saw the past I saw my pain leave my hands like minutes in the day.

I took a breathe looked at the sky dried my eyes .

And took a step into the unknown  never looking back at you.

   

ME

A man on his knees with his hands together praying for a new beginning . a man on his knees with his hands touching the ground. A man on his knees looking to the sky with his hands grasping for the unknown.

Which will still have the desire the hunger for more the strength with in to stand the strength to stand when he has fallen. Which will I be.

 

Some friends you meet and say goodbye and some you never lose no matter the distance and the time.

Unfinished….

Hey even though I know you and you know me .

There is still a lot to learn .

So where do we begin .

With I’m sorry with a hello with a kiss or hug.

I try but its never enough you try but its never enough.

My words can’t express the way I feel for you .

Nor can yours say what your heart feels.

Scratch that 90% of them are getting married i keep getting invitations...

 

Sins of a man II

I thought of sleeping with her. For I wanted more, more than you could give me . More than my hands could hold . So when she came over I did the unthinkable. In the name of lust. Even though this happened years ago. I remember my sins like it was yesterday You looked into my eyes seeing a angel. As I looked at you seeing a devil. You wanted a family a marriage . But I knew I allowed you to destroy everything I had so you could have me . And when I finally realized it, it was too late. So I gave up and became a servant of woman I called the devil.  

Lord can you hear my sins.

They don’t know what I’ve done but you do .

Yes  I am a son who needed his father but his father wanted for a man.

Yes I am a son who needed his mother but his mother had a life  to live with out him.

Yes I was a brother who’s sister disappeared years ago. Leaving me empty inside.

Yes I was a husband whose wife lived not in the same house she lived miles away. So when she left love left with her.

Then I became a boyfriend who never loved yes I cheated with her and her.

For love lived not in my house. And then love returned I repented I wanted more but more I could not have . Was it for my previous sins? This I know not  But this I believe

 

Kingdom come .

I don’t know what life will be when I walk no more.

When I see no more . when the cold chill of a women’s scorned heart worries me not.

Just when I thought my whole world fell apart.

I revealed the S that lives on my chest.

Just when you thought love was over .

A candle lite my way back home through the darkness.