You have a problem

And his name is

Brandon

ok its over no more peace talks.

no more running scared no more

holding my tongue no more . My mind is wreck less.

and now my words will match I’m hardier then your man on Viagra.

run inside and dead bolt that.

fear your man please tell him to get a friend or two and then he may be competition.

I've never fell in a fight never cried out . I've been busted open . and yet I’m still here

to say I’m back...

 

 

I am fueled by my past I’m fueled by my emotions . The emotions of hope the emotions of loosing it all. I can’t stand to be out done by someone that’s not even
 on my level. I have no limits to what my heart can put out . But limits on what my heart can take. In a sentence I can generate enough hate to fuel my hate
for all those who hurt me. And in the next I can pour my heart out for all to read I can write for hours on end. And yet I will always have more to say . Saying
you love someone by just saying I love doesn’t work anymore I’ve learned that you must touch them beyond three words. You must go where most will never
 travel. But some are afraid to venture there with you while some read what I write and read with confusion . Others see the meaning with in the sentence.
And some see what I really am beneath the skin beneath the pain what remains.  A man remembering and searching for what is lost.
Now witness my hearts strength…….

 "Pocahontas “

 

 

 

She’ll make you.

She’ll make you do what you never do .

She kept me calling she kept me screaming.

Come back  please come back . ..

I was hooked I was sprung I was ….

Late nights she’d call and I’d be on my way.

And if I was late to work then I didn’t care…

When we’d be out men would bite there lip with dirty thoughts.

As walked three steps behind watching that backside in wonder.

She’ll make you

She’ll make you  crazy but the best part was making her crazy.

And that’s another story….

 

D@ rko

 

 

I wrote a story of sorts i thought it was going to be one entry but it turned into a story that can keep going. To understand you must read it in order. The last three entries the first

THE RETURN OF D@RKO

THEN D@RKO II

FOLLOWED BY D@RKO III..

 

 I'm wonder if i should continue the story or leave it .....

 

Anyways enjoy... and let me know....

 

W@lk in

Hello its me D@rko the man you feared. The man with the blacked out eyes. I see what’s in your hands. And I dare you

If your gonna pull it then use it . Back down  you reply But that’s not in me I’ve backed down one to many times. Given up my riches for another man to rejoice and this time I’m back and this time I want to let you know one way or another Its mine and I am walking out with my heart . As I took her hand in my hand. My life felt its end near. As thunder echoed through the house. I could taste the sulfur in the air as smoke filled the room. One

My world went dark as the cold chill took over my body.

Two

my hand I couldn’t feel them I couldn’t feel her grip in my hands I could feel my heart next to me .

Three

I dropped to my knees as I saw my heart laying next to me . Screaming for me .

Four

She passed as I laid there with tears in my eyes I felt the warm steel pressed to my head and then I heard the faint tears of if I can’t have her then no one will..

Six

I a woke not in the room nor a hospital but in a field. I immediately grasped for my heart and my hand was empty. As tears filled my eyes I screamed for her to the north to the south the east and the west. But she wasn’t there. And I rose to my feet I saw foot steps in the field. Leading away  could it be her could she be looking for me .. I’m coming…….

In life and death I will never give up on you . …

 

D@rko......

 

My head to the sky... and my heart to pavement.

 

 

 

I see dead people  a D@llas story …

Your woman’s on my mind 

That’s right

Your lady is all I think of …..

I awoke this morning thinking of your girl

Thinking of  how I could take her from you

Like a thief in the night the hardier you hold her the easier

I’ll take her. Look into my eyes and see the blueprint the mastermind evil scheme . Some treasures are owned by those who

Should never have it in the first place. What’s yours is mine  you just don’t know it . Think twice when she leaves your side for one day she may not return . The thief in me lives my eyes light up with the idea my mind races with the thought and my hands twitch with the idea.. No matter the wall no matter the distance and no matter who watches over her . I will find away sometimes the only way is through the front door…. And my rule is never walk into a room you can’t walk out of and with her hand make way for I will walk in and I will walk out  and that’s all I have to say …

With your lady on my mind  by the way if I didn’t say it ….

 I’m at the door… 
D@rko  so what if I say it……

I want your girl….

Are you my girl are you my love.

Sleep tight in the arms of another .

For tonight we will share a dream as midnight comes

And goes I’ll be waiting where are dreams will meet.

And together we will share not only a dream but a fantasy.

And when the morrow comes.

And you awake in his arms remember me

Remember the dream and I’ll be waiting

For you once again.. This time its on me……

I love another but she doesn’t even know ….

I wonder if she loves me…

 

D@rko...

 

War  my mind is back my heart is strong and its war time . The last piece of the puzzle. is in Place so when i come when my words touch you hide your wounds hide your fear  for my mind is clear and my heart knows no bounds i will be the last i will make my name my mark in the sand. And idare you to rub it out i dare you  to make me  show you what my heart  holds back.. Darkchild the Monster the nam  i just want to smile....... so let me

 

Darkchild the wife The time it will take for you to learn that i've gone . you will realize that i'm gone. Insearch of someone who wanted to share tommorrow. Someone who never closed there heart to me. Listen to my cries for help as they go unnoticed.  As i cried out to you and you never answered my calls. Now when you call i'm afraid to answer Now i look at your picture Now i wonder if I was the one you loved or was i just a moment in time. When i looked up from my sorrow I saw that you were gone to someone else. But it doesn't matter anymore  for i don't cry anymore I know your gone and its time  that i smile that i live again that i love again . Even though we don't talk anymore The star we named doesn't shine anymore  The last of what we had has let go of us so as you did And now i must let you go as the stars did as the bond we shared linked by two rings. I guess it to can end love isn't like a ring it can end i guess the judge was wrong. Somedays hurt some years burn the heart but its life and life is the lesson may your marrige be that of legends.... D@rk CHild the legend .... Remember me and i will remember you...... The last entry of  what was none as MR. and Mrs. Jackson.....

I'm afraid to continue on the days the nights call out to me. I see you in my dreams yet when i reach out to you your never there why do you run from me. why do you fear me  i love you with all my might please reach your hand out to me .These days i need you more than anything but all i have when i awake from this nightmare are my tears. and my fears remember me the one you left behind remember the heart broken remember the loved  remember the forgotten and then you will remember me. i will be waiting for your hand to guide me back to the light back to where  its safe. please hurry .... the darkness coming ...   D@rkchild...

 

The   road to happiness is often a road of unhappiness. sometimes you will cry as you sit on the side of the road. And at times you will want to give up sometimes you will settle. Thinking this is what your life is all about. While you can be ones treasure are they your treasure . Are you lieing to your self. And is this the end or just the start of the road to happiness. Can you really live with the notion that this is not what you want. As i sat on the side of the road of life. I  cried for i knew not what i wanted. As the notion of settling crossed my mind but my happiness means to much to me So i stood up and keept walking as should you. D@rkchild.

 

Exit.. Are you not entertained. Is this not why you are here. To read about my ups my downs.Mainly my downs. The tears I cry the love I’ve lostThe new the old the dark the light. I’m not a fighter nor a lover but a man a son a brother. With the name given to me the storyline like no other… What more can I say What more can I do …. I know this much is true why do you have this effect on me. Day after day year after year you read and read about my one life. What more can I say What more can I do to make you understand me . Allow me to reintroduce my self My name is D@rkchild . And every word  can bring life or death. It can bring back love it can create the feeling of hope or it can destroy it .  With words I’ve learned you can do almost anything but bring life to a dead emotion….One day I will resurrect love that has died…..

She’s that girl with the cocky persona….

Me  break your heart my intentions are better.

You are the love I denied.

So when you took the chance on another .

You debated telling me .

Now you tell me you need me . And must I do

What must I say is this a

Is this a

Lie. Are you using me.. tell me don’t act like you

Don’t know

You don’t have to say what you did I

Already know  but

Tell me you love me tell me you need me

And all that I feel

Will be yours . 

 

 

 

The break down ….

I love you I need you

The break down begins with two words.

I do!

The fires burn bright

As I walk through the cemetery of feelings those that have come and gone.

Love the rage the hate the fear. ….

I passed  by the tombstone of our love.

And today was not like any other walk through the past . It was different.

For when I walked by the day of its death was gone ….And as I dug up the final resting place of all we had. I finally reached its metal tomb and when I opened it  it was empty. Is it true it lives is it true it once again walk this earth…..

 

 

 

I wish that I could hold you .

I wish I  could touch you .

As your slipping through my fingers.

All I can say is I need you to hold on  to me .

I want you to be there as the music plays I close my eyes.

And your there next to me .. And I feel you near me. And then I

Taste your lips so softly against mine. And the music plays on .
Am I foolish for loving you am I foolish for needing you …

Call me foolish as long as I have you ..

Call me in love as long as you breathe call me enchanted as I get on bending knee

Call me crazy when I say I want to marry you …

 

 

 

 

I want to be

I want to be everything your mans not.

I want to be everything you need.

I’m gonna get you even it takes me forever.

And I pray forever doesn’t turn into never.

I’ll let you know my love is that strong.

I just want to be the smile upon your face.

I want to be the man that lives with in your eyes.

I want to be the man you lay down to .I want to be

The man you cry out to when the world brings you down.

Just reach out your hand  and let me be .

That man..

 

 

 

 

South Side…. A D@rkchild remix.

 

My bloodline my love line  my wrong my right.

My yes my no my death my life.

 

I know the world doesn’t want us together .And they knew

How much we belonged together. They would understand what

Love was what life was all about. I want let them break us . for its me and you

Against the world . If I had your hand I’d be the richest man . ……….

 

 

 

 

The distance in your eyes tells it all
You’re soon be walking out the door
You’ll be leaving again like times before
I can’t hold you back anymore

I’ll be missing that sweet look in your eyes
Your warm hands around my chest have turned to ice
Now I know how hard it is to be,
Torn between love and dignity

My life without you will be empty and incomplete
Like the moon and the sun we’re not meant to meet
I, who thought we’d never part,
Have found myself left with half a heart

You used to mend my wounds with your tears
Your lips against mine burned all my fears
My heartbeats against your chest have lost their rhyme
Now that you hold me close for a last goodbye

 

 

 

 

As I sit back and think about today tomorrow last night a week ago ao year ago.

And I close my eyes and listen to the prayers.

As they pray and pray for my down fall.

I’ve fallen a time or two and yet I still get up.

Keep my name out your mouth .  yet my name is all I hear

As the phone continues to ring and the voices on the other side.

Are strangers to me trying to strike fear in my heart. They know all about me

Yet I know nothing about them . They say they know where I live yet never nock at my door. I know its linked to my past. Am I afraid of there prayers am I afraid of there taunts. Never that for my down fall is non existent.

So pray and pray for my down fall…

 

I’m not afraid  And to the guy on the other end with his questions .

Fuck YOU….

Wake up

You used to be my friend  you used to be my lover.  And now I can’t tell if you are my friend my enemy or my lover.

Wake up and tell me the truth .

Tell me not what I want to hear

Tell me  the truth love me or leave me be.

Leave me be but tell me you still love me with the last words

I hear from your voice let them be of me let them be of love.

Kiss me one last time before you walk out of my life tell me one last

Time that what I feel you feel tell me you cried for me tell me you felt what I felt. Tell me the days were long and the nights longer. Tell me . Before I wake up from this dream tell me there will always be a way back to you . before I say goodbye. Before I wake up .

Please

 

 

 

I love you when your right I love you when your wrong

I love you when your weak and when your strong .

Because you’re a real woman and sometimes

A real woman needs a real man .
And a real woman will love a man who loves her back .

And when he tells her he will give his first and his last.

May she understand may she see the love in his eyes.

Sometimes life will never let it be. But a real man a real woman will find

Away in a world of wrong to be shine to grow. And when a real woman loses a real man may she search and search until she finds him again . May she never settle may she never faultier in her search. And may he once again find her .

 

 

 

This may not be my world but you’re my girl. And all I can say is that I like it . So listen to me when I tell you I still want it . No

I can’t have it girl . You have is name you have his hand and I have nothing in my hand . it may seem like the odds are stacked against me . But you know my style can’t be denied. So shorty shorty close your eyes and listen to my words. He may tell you he loves you. But my heart my mind beats my lungs breathe my mind dreams only  for you . My dreams are your dreams .  So instead of laying in his bed dreaming a dream  come with me and live the dream….

 

 

 

 

I can’t get you out of my mind are you feeling me as I feel you . Everything you say everything you do makes me . Say  never again

Will I call

Never again will I go down a road so hard. When I looked you in the eyes I knew your feelings for me were dead wrong. I know that my emotions you wonder about  and your s I dare not think about . You lied to me broke my heart . Yet you keep calling and calling. Why would you make me cry for you why would reach your hand out in friendship only to cut my hand when I gave it to you .
Never again cross my heart hope to die.

You judged me called me a heart less you called me so much

Trying to make your self better trying pass judgment on me when your

The one needing to be judged .

Never again.

 

 

Not like me

He’s not like me

Before you stands a boy trying to be a man

Before you stands a child lacking the courage to be what he never be .

And when you look in his eyes then you shall see the monster behind the lies.

And when he speaks see the child for what he is .

I’m no angel no wings lie on my back no halo as my crown .

But I’ve never faltered in my search to be a man .

And my courage is only out matched by my heart .

And before you look in my eyes let me warn you of the story they will tell. For a beast did live in me and all that remains is lessons learnt

And when I speak now my words are backed by my heart.

And he can never be me.

 

 

 

Its me D@rkchild....  The darker side the lover the fighter the child…

I want to tell you about a girl that lives in my fantasies….

She’s likes it when I kiss her from head to toe. As along as I go slow she tells me she loves the way I work it . And she’s not afraid to beg for what she wants.

With a smile and a sexy tone asking me to take her. She loves to make noise louder she screams . And when she’s on top I can’t stop squirming as she gives me love with each and every thrust piercing me with the look of hunger. And in a the blink of an eye I see her from behind as my hands smack her thighs she says grab my hair …. A moment of truth or a fantasy……

 

 

 

Angels do walk the earth .

Angels are just like you and me .

They can love they can be hurt the cry like you and me . And sometimes

You can even fall in love with an angel. She fell from grace her body bruised.

Yet scars and bruises I did not see her eyes  consumed me . And all I wanted to do is feel her touch . Day after day I watched over her. Until one day the devil came looking for her. I let her go with tears in my eyes and she said the she would always be mine. Days pasted as the devil continued his search for her. Days turned into weeks weeks into years. And when the devil gave up his search . I looked for her and found her . But to my belief she was in the arms of another. As I stood there at a distance. Tears filled my eyes as I turned leaving her in my dreams. Of the angel that came to me when I was lost…..  

 

 

 

I want you to be happy and in love with me

I want you to know that my love is real

And I want you to know if you love me I’ll never let you go.

Thinking of you every damn day .

My love for you is second to known .

You are more than a man could ever want.

I closed my eyes and there you stood.
Is this a dream is the for real.

I know what your thinking I know what your thinking

So come with me and let me for fill all your fantasies

And when it rains may all the love lost be found.

I know you want love

I k now you want to fell

I know you want to live…

 

If you come then I will ….

These days i question everything. I was driving home and was listening to a song about if you love something let it go and if it comes back to you then its ment to be. I thought about that for along time on my long as drive home. And the more I thought about it the more I disagreed with it. Love depends on so much but fear can play a huge part of in the love let go theory.  And what happens if love is ripped from your hands. What do you do then do you fight to get it back do you just let it go and hope it finds you or do u find it .

 

I just don’t know ….

I find my self afraid to say what my heart tells me to.

 

Questions that need to be answered

 

You asked me if I love you,
I answered with a smile,
You shouldn't need to ask me,
Anyway you know that’s not my style.

But I do  and I would say it every day if it would bring a smile

To your  face.  Just tell me if I were to ask you would u say  that

You still love me.

 

 

I still see you in my dreams . ….

 

 

 

 

We begin with an image of us
I begin with a image of you

I see you laying there  wanting me.

You call me to your side as I lay there

I taste your lips and I could die . I don’t want

To do this anymore I want to be yours . I want for no one

Else I want to you to evolve into my friend my lover my wife and

The mother of my children. And the love of my life till the day I die.

And even then I will watch over you from heavens skys. And when the rains fall

Know its me thinking of you. And wanting to be there by your side.

 

 

The Kiss

I put my arms around her waist
I clasp my hands together
And pull her closer against me
She tilts her head
And I brush my lips against her neck
I look down into her beautiful brown eyes
and I see my past, present, and future
She closes her eyes and I close mine
I lean my head towards her
I feel her breath against my face
I quickly open my eyes just to see
If she is real
If this is real
Our lips touch
And we enlock
Into a passionate kiss
A perfect kiss
A perfect wish

 

A D@rk Child Dirty Classic.

For what I’m about to say I should be ashamed .  I can hear your moans 

I can hear  your cries.  Its been so long since I’ve seen you . Months and years and I just want to take you all night. But let me start with a kiss let me start with a touch . Let me look you up and down as my eyes are mystified.  You smile as I bite my lip with your look of surprise. And I say I’ve loved you since my eyes spied your smile. Now you grab me and a tear drops my eye. Your wipe it away and smile. There’s no need to cry I’m right here by your side.  As your lips touch mine my heart begs me is this a lie is she the one I dare not deny. And in minute I drop to my knees and you drop to my side.  I’ve never felt this way to my surprise.

And then you asked me to rise. And you grabbed my hand leading me to a place where two can be one.  I took my time and you know why. My lips my tongue know and if you were to ask I could never lie. As I tasted my demise. And as my lips ran up and down your side. I blew  and blew as you moved and moved. And said don’t stop and that’s no lie. And as time passed I felt you as I was inside. With each thrust I tried and tired to hide the feeling the control it had on me. And then I knew it was to be my demise. And when it was over I laid there staring at you as you laid there asleep I told you I love you . With tears in my eyes. 

Brandon Jackson . Love me or hate me . my words will touch the untouchable.

I was just thinking of seeing you tomorrow.

You and me awaking to a new day . What you have a man

And he wouldn’t like me talking to you .

Well let him come let him rip your beauty from my eyes.

Your worth any trouble that would come my way as long as I could

Wake up with you . Look in my eyes fear lives not in these eyes.

I want your hand I see your ring but . I see that your still here . So won’t you

Follow me to a place where only two can be one…

D.Child

 

D.Child

I know the little things you love.

I know the words that touch you.

I know the wounds you carry.

And every time I saw you I

Was blown away by your style.

Like a flower blooming like a star in the sky

There is only one  Like the first love  you can

Never be replaced. You are first true love

And with every touch I my love blooms over and over

. And every moment with you was a moment stolen for all time

And stored with in my heart.

I know the little things you love.

But most of all do you now .

You’re my love.

 

B.J.

Monster who wished to be a Man ..

 

 

 

The birth of D@rkchild a Frankenstein tale.

I will create a son in my own image. I will make him from myself.

I will give him courage I will give him a heart like no other.

And when he speaks his voice will touch those who dare not be touched.

His eyes will be like an abyss yet full of life.  And when he looks in the mirror may

He see me his father his life his blood. And when I fall may he live on may the never see

The monster that lives with in may he pass as me may he beloved like me .

And with all this said all I have to do is …..

 

Awake my son…..

 

D@rkchild lives D@rkchild the monster…..

 

Defeat or a Victory

 

 

 

Its time for me to move again . Hopefully I will be gone by October 15^th my time is up . And I must pack my bags and leave this city behind. I’ve decided to get rid of anything that reminded me of the past.  I’m scared but looking forward to the next step in my life.

 

I’m sitting here and writing and I look to my left and see the Archives. And as I’m sitting here I see

 

that its been to damn long at this almost two years two years . I wonder if my mind will ever run out of things to write about . I started it  for many reasons  a way to express my emotions about certain people a way to get out all that troubles me. Adopted many personalities along the way . But one has remained  I rarely write my real name after  each post. Why I never know maybe I’m hiding behind the name. Or maybe it is me none the less . At first I thought my words could win back or hold on to something I lost. So i put my heart and soul into it . But after like a month or more I learned that was not going to happen but I continued to write and write. No longer writing to the person but writing to the idea. And sometimes the idea took parts of my life. Along with a lil fiction . I saw it as therapy but with a side of hope. And one day I went back and read some of the things I wrote . And saw my self all over the screen and cried. Cried one for the simple fact that I was going through so much pain and  the other for the beauty of it all. 
And along the way I hopefully picked up a few loyal fans of my writing .

With 13,108 hits to my page lets hope I did…

 

Brandon Jackson.

 

 

 

 

 

D@rkChild. Lay your head on my pillow

And tell me your story . Tell me you secrets tell me and the will be safe

Just tell me for I am your diary . And as the words come and go fear not

That every memory every painful moment and joyful moment . I’ll keep

I’ll  be the loyalty that your heart desperately needs.

 

Child, D@rk