Its gonna get worst before it gets better.

The rain will fall tears will come .

Trust in the knowledge that you will be betrayed.

Before the end trust that those who stand by your

Side will wish your demise.

Kiss the devil love the grave.

Help me there crying out .

I can only pull so many knives out my back.

 

 

 

Rumble young man rumble .

I can taste the blood in my mouth

I can feel my heart race beat after beat.

Angels hold me near for tonight the ones I love

Want me dead.
Why does my heart falter after each beat.

My secrets my secrets.

As the taste of blood lingers in my mouth.

 

 

Talk about me .

I can hear you as my name lingers on your lips

I can hear your voice say I can’t stand him .

Listen to my thoughts for I know you plot my end.

Love me not for the end is what you seek.

 

 

My last thoughts

My last thoughts to you the day the morrow.  I can’t write this damning you for these are my last thoughts.  No sorry’s for I regret nothing in this world. If I lost something it just meant that it was time for another to have. A mans hands can’t hold back the world it can hold but a moment in time. The memory of the past or a dream of the future. But when on this night my last is no longer my first. When my eyes fade to white when my soul departs and the shell remains may they know this wasn’t how I dreamed my demise yet this is how it came to be.  

 

Bonnie & Clyde Separation anxiety 07 

Me and her separated like  two sides of a coin worthless apart but priceless together.  She was lost to the world and I lost to the past.

She was lost in a world with out direction . And I in tow wondering aimlessly in search of her heart. Like following a path left in the sands of time I can’t follow . And as I call her name she stands silent .

So my feelings fade my heart  wonders through time.

Lost to me lost to her .

 

My friend eyes so blue My friend her heart so big.     She dreams of  happiness Of love of a man that sees her As she sees him she dreams Of a child that bares her likeness Of a ring Of a home A husband She knows these shall come. For hope lives in her Brandon

 

Every time I look your way I can’t help but lock eyes. Every time I look in your eyes I want to tell you how I feel Tell you that in me burns a love for you . and a day with out You is a day with out life. A man could go a life time wishing For the feelings I have for you . As days pass the flame in me grows And grows slowly consuming my world. Till your name is all I know Till your face is all I see and the warmth of your voice melts my heart. And when I look in your eyes I dream like never before I dream of life Of family of a future with me and you . Be with me and I shall be yours for a life time. And beyond. Brandon

 

As I lay here with my eyes closed I see what can’t bee seen I see tomorrow I see the day after I see the pain of yesterday and days past. And with in me rages on the battle between Life and death The boy vs the monster . The child vs life. I want to undo the past for the past will un do me. And when god sees fit to open these eyes. May the child win . May the monster be slain. And may love return.                                                                                    D@rkchild & Brandon

girls

 

I hear you have a man .

I hear you love him but he denies you the feelings you long for .

I don' t want to be him

i don't want to be the man of you desires.

Le your tears fall for him as i watch from a far.

And when the end is near there i will stand in the shadows.

 

 

 

Same girl

I meet her first i knew her way before you came in the picture . There was no you before me

when she called me she would say she care for me .

and when she called you she said the same.

How she wanted to be bye my side.

but she lied

she lied to me but told you the truth

now she's yours and thats ok

i'm tired of crying over you

it seems like i have to move on but everytime

someone talks about you

tears run down my eyes.

this thing called love.

 

Cheated

i remember when the phone rang that day

and she said she wanted me .  But my heart belonged to you

but i should have cheated on you .

just like you did to me .

i should have run to the arms of another

but i stay faithful to you .

while you laid in his arms.

now i wish i wouldhave lied to you as you did me.

 

 

 

The greatest love of my life .

And she wasn’t my wife she

She hurt me worst then any woman I’ve ever loved

Tears fell for her

I’m on knees calling her name

Hoping she will look my way

But she never did

She left me alone her name forever

Written on my soul

When I look in the mirror its her I see

When I touch my chest its her heart deep inside

I’m as much of her as she is me. She goes by many names

I call her

MOM .

 

 

I can’t call you I can’t listen to your voice .

As my armor feels tight against my chest as I stand before you.

My feelings deep inside as you cry my heart goes numb.

You say I should love you but you know not of yesterday .

You  know not of today the memories I have for you .

Will never fade forgive forget .

My mind sick with pain.

I guess I’ve lived so long with out you

I don’t see a purpose for you and I

The bond that will forever be broken

With the man

I call

father. 

My life is cluttered with scars from the years  that have come and passed ye though it all there remains light the light of tomorrow the light called hope and she has a name she has a name for she is my future i hope i hope she is everything i am  not my love my hope my passion .  for i am her might her wisdom  so look out the window of life annd when you see her the hope of my  life show her where i am waiting my lord. your son Brandon  the D@rkchild.

Fucked up over you .

I’m so fucked up when I think of you .

I can’t think straight when I saw you my heart skipped a beat.

And when I saw him bye your side my fist clinched anger consumed my heart.

As I approached i stopped and watched you walk away .

My feet like lead my heart dieing in my chest.

My soul torn into one side wanting to follow while the other turned its back on you.

Me and you

No more

Yet you call when things are bad yet you call when you seek attention.

As I sit here the phone ringing for you . I wonder

Should I

Brandon

  

D@rkchild 

"I could die in your arms tonight"

Love no lets start off with

The beginning you knew the pain I went through

My face is like my fathers  but my heart like my mother

I see the evil he gave me I feel the love she bestowed to me .

I try to hide the anger in my eyes and bless those close to me with the love with in.

But some times the light in my heart is darkened by my pain.

So as I lay my head down this night of nights .

I could truly die by your side

In your arms my heart lives in your arms my soul will rest .

Lord bless the watcher of my heart for its weight could break anyone.

 

Brandon J.  

Ex’s

Kiss Kiss she wants me but I don’t want her.

She looks at me with the hunger of a lion.

She calls my name I don’t reply

She begs for me

She offers her heart her mind her body .

Hoping I can’t resist the bliss of her

Kiss kiss

Her eyes say it all.

But her mind is a mess. I just can’t go back  to that

D@rkchild. & Brandon

 

Love me

I still think of you .

When the music plays I close my eyes and I’m right

Next to you .

So I close my eyes and dream of you .

I love you I love you .

I love you today like the I did so many days ago.

And when I lay in bed I call your name while I sleep.

I awake and clinch the air for your not there .

Please say you love me to.

As I still do .

My fingers would run up and down your side.

Like it was my first time to touching the stars above.

 

Brandon. J.

 

Hi my name is Brandon let me say a few things in your ear .

I don’t care if you have a ring on your finger.

Married your hand says but your lips say that your unhappy.

This I know for your still here talking to me . I don’t ask his name because I matters not.

Twenty minutes pass and her ring goes into her purse.

She say do you have a girl I reply I didn’t ask so you should ask.

She laughed and said your bed or mine.

Follow me

D@rkchild.

  

 

This is the end of the road the last step to the end. of me of you the streets on fire the road we traveled on fire no past no reminders. as we sit her lost in the world of what is today . My name lingers on  your min my heart in your hands. Let go i ask forget me for the  longer you hold on the more it hurts.  the more you  try to hold me  happiness will escape me let me free to run to smile to be happy. with out you .  darkchild.

Darkchild.

 

She never was mine she never was my tomorrow.

She was my yesterday my day before these days. Where tears fell. Where the end was written before it ever happened.

She lied and lied the future she promise was filled with lies. Along with the kiss of hope my lips tasted the thoughts of what could be. But pain is all that filled my hunger with in..

 

 

 

Rain it Pours .

God lwft my side long ago .

The light from my eyes left so

The dreams of the future I see in the eyes of others.

Fuck my wife the child we had the rings we shared the future we wrote.

Like a letter in the sand the water comes and then its gone. You may feel traces yet its gone. So cry not for the dream cry not for the husband the wife the child. For it was only written in sand.

 

My rear view.

Looking back what do I see a lot of choices made that should have been forgotten. Getting down on bending knee . Only to get to this place in my life.

Love is a curse a sickness which you long to have. A sickness you yearn for as your mind feels with the thoughts of another how your lips hunger for the taste of there lips. How your body wants the pleasures the thrust of there body on top of yours. The curse the touch the pain the gift of love brings.

Ending with I love you .

 

To my unborn child.

I’m sorry I’m gone I’m sorry that I couldn’t be there for you to hold you when you fall to protect you from the worlds misery . And when they say my name don’t let there feelings skew your view of you one and only father. My name is you’re my gift to you my heart beats with in you .

My unborn child.

And know from heavens door I wait from heavens door I watch over you my love my unborn

Me.

 

 

 

Broken wings.

Sometimes. Sometimes I look at pictures I should view. Sometimes tears fall this I know sometimes my heart wants to call the ones I  lost. Bu t my mind know this shall never be till the end of time.

  

Let there be light .

Let the sun rise the darkness fall.

Let mothers smile let fathers cry let the wounds heal .

Let the scars fade let good shine while the bad fall.

Lord let this twist world that goes around and round spin

Right for once.

Let me smile let my head face the stars above

Let me pluck one from the sky let me call it my own.

Let the one I dream about know my true intentions let

Me be

What I am destine to be.