True story

You call me wanting a date .

You say you just want to be with me I tell you I have a girl you don’t care .

You tell me what you would do to me . And its on my mind and that’s no lie.

But no is what I say .

And as walk away knowing what I did was right .

I ran to my love to be . And as walked up tot the door . Only to see her in the arms of another .

She says it was my fault she says it was over along time ago.

She says she was never faithful.

Stupid me .

7-28-2006

Look into my eyes and see what I see

Look deep and see past the shell look and you

Will see a story unlike any other .

7-28-2008

Look past my skin and see a man look past the man and see the person.

The person who feels like no other. Who looks back at you with a hunger .

A hunger for you to be the one. To make him want no more And with my arms out accept me for my faults and love me for my greatness and I shall do the same.

Suicide the dream.

Now I lay my head down to sleep with the barrel to my temple .

I can smell the oil in the barrel I can smell life and fear all in one breathe.

Tear roll down my eyes. Change things I wish live with them I must .

Die with them I can .

Behind I leave no note behind I leave just the my pain just my thoughts against the wall .

Leave m today leave me years ago it makes no difference.

Because a pill can’t heal my wounds because talking can’t change the life I’ve written.

So now I lay me down to sleep and the bullet my soul shall take.

Bye……………

Never took the time .

I never took the time to stop and remember yesterday.

What am I supposed to do with all these memories.

What am I supposed to do with all these feelings and questions.

I have to find away to answer these questions .

These feelings need to be explained.

My heart demands answers.

As tears fall my heart demands the truth.

So, so serious .

Now I lay my head down to sleep .

And if I should die before I wake pray the

Lord fears my soul to take.

For many will fall if I fall.

Lord my heart is all that you shall take.

Heal me see me . Love me breathe life into me.

For when my head hangs low pick me up .

When my sight fades guide me through the darkness.

I’ve lived my life full of tears and pain.

Now I want more .

Now I want you .

Long ago I dreamed

Long ago I believed.

A man could touch the heavens above a man could love just one .

And then life came then the tears and now the pain.

But with my pain comes the rain .

The rain that washes away the ashes of the past

The rain that brings about the phoenix that will scorch the heavens and the earth.

Side effects.

Love

My heart skips a beat when I see you .

My eyes water when you say bye.

My lips burn after they touch your .

My arms go weak when they are wrapped around you .

My mind thinks of the future . My mind thinks of lust love dreams .

I’m so sick

I’m so in love…..

I’ve lost you once.

I’ve lost love

I’ve cried for you .

Sometimes it seems like what ever I do I just can’t get through to you .

I lost my way she said she would never go.

She said that I was her everything.

But then the door shut and she was gone.

She leaved me.

She leaved me.

She left in the middle of the night.

I awoke to find her gone no letter no kiss goodbye.

I called her so many times but she never answered she never called me back.

She left me wondering she left me crying.

As the days came and went so did the feelings for her .

For her..

To be loved is to have the hand of god on your shoulder carrying you through life.

To be loved is to know your worth .

To be loved is to know death and fear a broken heart more than death …

Listen to the drums of life listen to the hearts of the one you love .

Listen as a the drums beat like the heart of the congo…

The king

In his final speech.

Never have you seen in your life time a boy who became a man who became more than a man.

I’m not dead

I’m not done

I’m not great but I try

I try to close my eyes and remember the first day I smiled .

The first kiss I got so many years ago when the world was just a thought.

To the day i wrote my first poem .

When the pen became my arm to when my words became my voice.

I am a king.

Name it and its done.

Stand out side his apt dressed in black .

No gun no steel for the anger with in needs no help.

Let the chains go that bind me. Let this sick man go let me nock down his door.

Let me do what he did to you let me touch his heart . Let tears fall down his eyes let

I’m sorry utter from his lops let me be the devil that walks amongst men.

And when the sirens ring out call me home when the sirens ring . Know the devil stood before him.

Know your pain is my pain..

Beat my love and my love will beat the.

4 years. And I have yet to be stopped.

4 years and the ink may fade but my words my emotions still live on.

4 years since my good bye and 4 years since the birth of my thought.

4 years 16703 hits .

My thoughts used to run on for hours poem after poem . Now all is quiet in my mind all . Just thought of the tomorrow and yesterday.