Lord

             Give me a sign Am I a puppet for your words am I sick for feeling the way I feel .

 Am I alone or do I really have you . Guide the father to be the Angel

cursed with the

 thoughts of a sinner. Forgive me father

Forgive me for I’ve sinned I’ve called and called and the thought I have are wrong .

Am I tempted by the wrongs of my life . Or am I being punished for my past wrongs.

Forgive me

Bless the seed that bares my name bless them with love and curse them not. For I am sorry .

Forgive me Or forgive menot.                                                                                                                         

The Cancer

And they ask me do I believe in God

And I ask you  does he believe in me 

What will it take for him to hear her story .

Lord you need to hear her story and know

That she needs you she believes in you .

She talks to you every night .
And when they ask me do I believe in God

And I ask them does he believe in her.

How much can one person take how much can she take.

As a boy I saw her cry and as a man I’ve watched her cry and I ask

Lord do u see her cry .                                                                                                   

Vita (Life)

I spell Vita  L O V E 

Yet when I see it I see Pain

And when i reach out to touch it I am left with bloody hands.

Like a rose so beautiful but its thorns keep you from grasping tight .

These feelings will always contradict maybe it’s the feeling the person

The time or maybe its just

Vita  (Life)

Look into my eyes and see what I see

Look deep and see past the shell look and you

Will see a story unlike any other .

Georgia  The Countdown.

To the birth of the newest member of my family.

My angel to be  the seed that lays next to me.

As days pass as moments grow closer and closer.

Soon the devil the saint will have his son his daughter.

Tears fall my heart grows  more and more . I remember talking to the Lord

Thinking you would never come now your day my heart counts down to .

You came when my heart was at its weakest now my purpose is greater than me.

Some days you will always remember. The first day your heart belonged to another .

The first day your heart was broken.

The moment when two souls become one.

There are days you never forget .

And some you wish to forget.

Buts on these days that make you who you are.

I remember each day as if it were my last I smile through

the bad ones and laugh through the great ones..

Never forget  always remember.

It sucks to have feelings for someone and have no earthly idea if they feel anything at all for you. I try hard not to come on to strong so I don't call. I wait for him to call me. He doesn't call, again he doesn't call. Has he forgotten about me. Has he been going through something that he feels he can't talk to me about. I feel if I call I am the desperate one. At least if he calls me I know he wants to talk. Why wont he say something... anything about what he feels for me. I think your a great friend. Your fun to talk to. I like you more than a friend. Anything would do. At least I wouldn't be left wondering. Is he afraid if he tells me that I will only just be a friend that I will walk away and never talk to him again. Or maybe he is afraid to let his heart love again. I don't know and thats what kills me. Would you please just tell me what I mean to you...please? Maybe I'll just ask

If you think you can fuck with J@dis you must be crazy .

If you think you can fade me u must be crazy .

Its true I hate your friends because there twisted

And did I mention crazy.

And when I hear there comments they make me go crazy

I’m an angel a devil wrapped into one .

But if your friends want to try there luck . Then I truly know

There crazy.

The angel in me will invite them in my life but the devil in me

Will make sure they don’t leave.  So warn them and if they want

To enter say your goodbye’s

 If you won’t stand with me then your against me .

And its W@R.