Brandon...

Take me

Take me to a place where lovers hide.

Take me to a place where darkness hides our actions.

Take me to a place where screams and moans are all we hear.

Scream my name as I scream yours. Pull my hair as I scratch your back. Talk dirty to me. Make me want you make me need you.

Make  me beg make me  want what lovers share make two into one.

Climb on top of me let me climb on you .

Lets lay in each others arms.

Let a kiss be the beginning and the end.

Brandon the Lover..

Buried alive.

I had a dream the other night . I was standing in a cemetery in front of a tombstone. Looking down at my name of the tomb stone. As I dropped to my knees trying to see when I died as I touched the tombstone I closed my eyes and when I opened them I was in the coffin . and when I blinked I was kneeling over my tomb stone.  As I kept switching back and forth I began to dig and tear at the coffin.

As time passed I reached the coffin breaking it open grabbing my hand . As if part of me came back from the grave.

As if something awoke me .

Its 3am and you call.

The call starts off slow as my eyes try to open. You say hi I say hi .

You say I want to work this out.

But  where my heart used to be doubt remains.

You tell me to change you tell me its my fault I . tried to be everything you wanted. And you still wanted more.

And the more I changed the more I felt like it wasn’t me.

You watched my every action but who was watching you who was watching you with others. While I carried guilt on my shoulders for not being the man you wanted.

And then I realized you weren’t the girl you promised to be.

D@rkchild in addiction.

How can I fight these urges.

How can go on with these feelings pumping through my veins.

How can I think of nothing else . My wants exceed my needs. My needs are my wants.

I’ll forsake everything to feel the way I once felt. To know that my heart wants what is rare in this world. I hunger for that emotion. I crave the touch the taste the warmth that follows. I long for the feeling that will consume me . I long to be Brandon again…

Tin M@n

If I had time .

If I had time I’d sit my self down .

I’d listen when no one else did .

Id see things my way. Id tell you tears aren’t a sign of weakness.

Id tell my self  you may walk in the shadows of giants.

But giants can walk in the shadows of men.

And you should never admire what others have for what you have is more than what they have.

I’d say Brandon laughter is love, love is pain . Never dwell move on . And know your last love will be your  greatest love.  

To love is to experience death

And birth in a matter of moments

To be helpless and strong all in one breath

Love is to know the end and the beginning .

You can love someone one for years and  no other.

And to lose it as if it were never yours to begin with .

Relationships live and die by the will and the desires of two.

Be each other’s armor each other’s heart. For when the world sees its weakness they will come until all is lost.

Lately my heart has been hard to reach…

Beautiful your are .

He may beat you, you curse you  as you lay there.

Thinking  if you could be in my shoes see what I see would you still hate me.

Wounds heal words are forgotten man may take your faith man may take your beauty  but beauty is deeper than what the eye can see.

So when you look in the mirror. Never say I’m not beautiful…..

For a blind man can see what you are . a blind man knows the truth even if the world can’t see it .

So when he hits say you can never take my beauty away for the anger of man can never touch what is with in.

Why aren’t you my girlfriend...

When I saw you i lived a lifetime in a minute as you walked by.

As my eyes followed you hiding behind those in the crowd.

Never to far from you. Never would I have thought I could be caught up in the raptor that is you. Never would I have thought I could be consumed by a smile by your eyes. And with every step I drew closer to you with every step my heart raced with every step to you. My eyes absorbed all that is you.  And what happened next only two will know….

A real heart breaker…..

And there is nothing I can do to shake her….

She says….

She says she loves me then she says she doesn’t…..

But I should learn from your lies….

That when in love you never listen to your heart….

Lust controls you fear guides you …..

You say I’m your friend but not until the end.

You say I’m your man as you hold another’s hand.

You  say I’m perfect …..

But for another….

Why am I still here why am I listening to you……