As i'm sitting here so many things are running through my mind. So many things i want to say . So much i want to tell the world so much i want out of my head. But how can i give my message its just worth how can i tell the world what i've never told a soul.  How can i cut these mental wrist so that what lies in them pours out on to the keyboard. And what i have to say is it worth any thing to anyone.

 

Brandon Jackson.

 

 

Tell me 

You don’t know   

You haven’t read anything like this before

You haven’t seen a man touched with the gift

With heart to endure it all . With the pen in one hand

And the sword in the other. I can write sentence after sentence of life of love pain sorrow and forgiveness. And with the other I can unleash a terror like no other.

So when look into the eyes of another know you won’t see  what lies in these eyes…

 

Which do you prefer the pen or the sword.

 

To my Father Brandon .

 

A moment in my life.

I was created in a moment of pain. The child of two or of one I can’t remember . I am but two years old. I was raised in a world of darkness. I was never given a name. I lived in the shadows. Of my father through him I survived through him I lived. We were two but one . I took away from him what he dare not handle. He kept me alive and I him. I;m afraid one day he will no longer need me . But the day he does I will be happy for him. For my birth will have been worth it . I may not have been the child he wanted but he loves me no matter what. Through me he has seen things maybe he would have never seen. I am the passion the pain that lives with in him. I am the romance the heart that will never fade. I am hope I am tomorrow.

I am D@rkchild.

 

Love one fuck another .

It is what it is

We knew what it was when we became a part of it .

Baby I love her but I can’t go home to her tonight .

Listen to my pain  .

You know I love her but I need you.

Why do I stay with her when she doesn’t listen to my pains when shes never there when I come home .

You say u watch my tears fall and yet your right there . You say the tears that fall are mine but the pain lives in your heart.

Love one fuck another

It is was it is ..

 

DMX inspired…. & D@rkchild the beast

I’m tired of your games

Tired of your pain .

I’m walking out on you .

I’m tired of being lonely  

Every day we spent I felt so alone I felt as though it was just me.

You promised me

You lied to me .

So now its just me .

You hurt me for days to come

Question every word question every thought every breath every tear every moment of my life. Question and question.

Question my birth

Question my life .

And soon question my death.

I live with these doubts with each breath I breathe it breathes

With each step I take it draws closer.

I lay with these doubts. Intertwined in my soul like two lovers

And when my eyes close I dream I want .

So question if you must .

And answer I never will..

D@rkchild the Be@st...

Why do u

Why do you lay at night next to him .

Why do you say that you love him

Why do u

Why do u lie to yourself. He says hes’ the one

Yet I’m your one .

Fill my shoes he tries but never can he be .

Just stop and listen to my words. And soon they

Will be your words.

Love me             

Like I love you . D@rkchild...

Classic…

House

The first day I meet you . I wanted to play the games that others play.

Girl your so beautiful .

I put that on every thing .

You can be the mommy I can be the daddy.

I would be the perfect spouse.

This game I wish to play is long term.

And I know that you feel the same.

House

I just wish I could hold you .

I want you

No I need you .

I need you as much as you need me .

You say that you’ve forgotten me but when I see you daily. All I can do is say

I need you .

I love you

I adore you .

You can call me foolish and I might be.

But I still need you .

 

What a week ... just got back from austin and Sanantonio ....

Break up

The phone calls end . The memories end up in a box.

The feelings fade. the feelings are but a reminder of a day .

A day ago soon to be a week a month then a year...

You try to end it as bad as possible so that you never want to talk to them again.

Yet somedays u do . but do u call . or just let the feeling subside.

Maybe we all have something to learn.. You only see your faults through the eyes of another yet u hate them for it. 

 

Bye.

Brandon Jackson.

Fuck’em  that what my heart tells me .

As I try to separate the fake from the real

The dead from the living. What ever .

I know they hate me they never liked me and that’s a fact.

So if I pass them on the streets then a glance and a whisper fuck you is what they get  .

No hello’s no love. .

Your gonna love me

Lord somebody love me

Love me when I’m wrong

Love me when I’m right.

Fuck the pain fuck the shame

Love me when I’m right but love me more when I’m wrong

Forgive me when I know not what I do .

Show me the light show me the darkness. Show me right

Show me wrong.

Just as long as you love me .

Love me when I’m stubborn love me when I timid .

So when I talk to u just tell me ya love me .

 

D@rkchild..

D@rkchild..

She’s back

She back in my life two which were closer than one .

Back together

We were apart and learned the lessons of life some good some bad.

Only to return greatier strongier than before.

SO with her return  fear my strength for she’s by my side  a friend like no other.

Her enemies my enemies because she’s never had a friend like  me . My friend

So few in the world that you can call your own..  

D@rkchild the Great.

 

 

 

Warrior

 

I’m warrior   you called me out a battle is what you wanted a war is what you got.

Fuck me is what you said .

And before its over you will wish u never said those words to me.. You call with your threats you call with your taunts. I have what you want I have what you can never have.

I laugh for I’m warrior …

And if you think I’ll fold under pressure.

Then you’ve already lost..

Hold on tight for I’ll come for you in the middle of the night I’m two cars back .

At the light. You may have seen me but I know u as our paths cross I can taste the fear you leave behind.

But when I’m far away u scream till your lungs hurt but when I’m but feet away you whisper .

You tell me whose the Warrior

 

 

 

Can I talk to you  How come when ii call you never answer how come when I call your name you never turn . How come my thought my emotions you pretend you can never see. What must I do what must I say for you to see I’m all you need  my dream is to grow old with you. How come

How come my dreams never become reality .

I can’t be your friend I can’t be a shadow in your life I want to be your reflection I want to be your breath your dreams I want to be what you call love I want to be what you call happiness.

 

 

Dirty Dog

The raw where do we begin

I can’t help but hurt you . I can’t be what you’d like

I never said I was an angel . Listen for these words are no surprise.

I just want to fly. I think I’ve loved you since I first saw you . But you didn’t love me

And that was no surprise. I often wondered why .

Why

Was it my skin two shades darker was it my eyes two dark two full of pain. Was it my voice twisted but full of life.

Or is it because I’m a

Dirty Dog.

I love you  though .

Why am I sitting here killing my self for you .

I wonder why.

Or should I say goodbye.

 

D@rkchild the Great

 

 

 

 

My friend found this pic we took 7 years ago. .. Why i let her put this on my head i know not.....  A friend none the less.

Well its my birthday .  So happy birthday to me.

Two days till the anniversary  two days till my birthday. A day my life began a day my marriage ended. Last night I had  a long conversation with a friend. Over the one the dream of finding the one the last. The person you in your mind you were ment to be with maybe not the first but the last love of your life. Love them and if they leave  love them more and one day they may return to you . To love them and to give up on them means maybe you never loved them at all. Or maybe you were to afraid to put your heart on the line.  And if you do put your heart on the line and it all goes bad. Your afraid from that day forward to take that risk . Because they were your last love.

Do you lick your wounds and realize you lost Or like the phoenix do you try to resurrect your dream your love from the ashes in which it died.

 death is only a step in life.

Brandon  D@rkchild the  Great.

Judge me

I sit there listening to you judge me where’s this where’s that. Show me this show me that. Change is what you scream change me I’m wrong I’m broken I’m the problem . No

Change you I say I’m perfect. For what I’ve seen for what I’ve lived. I’m as perfect as I can be. So judge your self. Judge your life before u judge me. And you may see the truth. The mirror tells no lies. Just look listen and you may see….

And if u still wish to judge then

Fuck ya…

D@rkchild....

Who will hold her hand .

when I die who will hold her hand. Wipe her tears who

Will carry on my name who will keep my name .
Who will avenge me who declare war in my name . Who will cry for me at night when I’m no longer around to laugh to hold. I wonder if I died would tears come to manies eyes.

As I lay there as my breathe draws near I wonder not for the after life. But the mark I made . Would I die with out love would I die with out a legacy. Will they remember old or young.  But most of all who will hold her hand . As I take that long trip to the other side.

I am not empty without you
Though there is a place that was only filled with your love
I know that I must force myself forward
In order to prove strength in my own soul
I am not half of a person without you
Though for so long we were known as you and I,
I can fend for myself in this world
My strength was found in the emotions felt within my heart
Not within your very body
And I can live amongst the pieces that I still hold
And let you mourn over the pieces that you lost
Cry for me…