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    5/31/2009

    My jump off

    The girl The girl is this what you wanna be . Do you wanna be the girl I call when no one else will do . Can I call you when im sad when im happy when joy feels my heart when tears blind me from the world . Can you be that girl I lay with can you be that girl I long to spend my day with. Be that girl I drop to my knees for and place a ring on your hand. And long for you to say I do. And stand before god and family and pledge my love for a lifetime. Can you be that girl to hold the seed of our love in your whom . The best of me the best of you . Can you be that girl a old man never stops saying he loves can you be that girl that mourns the lost of her love. Can you be that girl who longs to be in heaven with me. . Love is eternal. -- Sent from my T-Mobile Sidekick®

    Break me and she will love me more and more

    Humpty Dumpty Fell off a wall and the kings men could not put him back together again.. The world pushed me down the world broke me man and woman walked by man and woman watched as pieces of me scattered to the wind. And only one stopped to help your hands were cut by all the broken pieces which made me . You replied my wounds shall heal as will yours. And even though I will never be the same . Broken I am better than I was whole in your eyes. -- Sent from my T-Mobile Sidekick®

    God break me rebuild me destroy me

    How do you know if the decisions you make are right or wrong. You pray that the choices you make are right even though most of the time they are wrong were human we make mistakes over and over when will we ever know . When will love touch us all love finds its way for some and others take a lifetime to find some come and go and when should you let go. We surround or selves with wrongs maybe thinking that's what our worth in titles us to. Give me lust give me greed give me every sin but give not to me pain .my mind is shattered from a early age its almost as if I were a chained dog beaten starved hated and the man that grew from that is unwanted by society. Am I forever a outkast who will dare close to the man in chains. Friends and family warn against feeding the beast. Some say its to late some say you can't domesticate me some say I should be put down. Put me down throw me not to the wind throw me not to the stars. Throw me to the dirt the worms let me give back to the earth bone flesh heart and soul. Bury me deep deep as the abyss for to shallow I will return . Tell me I ruined it tell me I fucked it up brand me devil brand me a liar a cheater brand me worthless . I am all of those and none of those for im something else. -- Sent from my T-Mobile Sidekick®

    run away

    saddiest day. .
     
     
    going crazy my heart is breaking. i can't sleep at all. And i'm not sure how i will get through this.  ANd i know i'm part to blame.  my heart is down on its knees.
    5/27/2009

    Mother of man

    I had a poem written for this one but i thout is was a poem in it self. i consider this the definition of a woman in her puriest form. 

     

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    5/26/2009

    gift

                                                                                                                         

    My gift to you .

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

    When god made Brandon he touched him .

    when god made you he touched you.

    Each givien a gift that no other will ever share.

    for i am unique as you are.

    My dreams my gift will forever be written .

    Hate me or love me for my gift is my own .

    angel or man i am what you made me.

    I compare my gift to my youth . Untouched by life

    adn man . and my darkness is the aftermath of my life.

    the pain i've seen the pain i've endured and given..

    I pray for  forgiveness but expect nothing in return .

    for if fall only fe w will stand over me and care.

    but may they remember my gift and rememeber me.

    as i would them.

    Brandon Jackson

     

     

    i still need you beside me

    For falling in love.

    I remember you so well . do remember me  and the day I feel in love.

    I was wrong for falling in love.

    It was a feeling I can’t explain. I remember you so well.

    I remember the day you moaned my name . I remember the day I laid you down. I remember kissing your neck I remember touching your side. I remember looking deep into your eyes. And knew I was caught in your web.

    Then you grabbed my neck and pulled me close kissing …..

    And then I awoke and know im to blame for you not being there. I still need you beside me. I still need your love .

    I still reach for you I still look at your pictures. I still close my eyes.

    I still imagine.

    Until you come back I must do these things to keep my heart from breaking.

    (unfinished)

    unfinished

    We had a child. You and me .

    Some say I was born June 7th but I wasn’t born till I meet you .

    And now that your gone . I’ll raise the child you left me with. He cries for you .

    I cry for you . But I tell him you will one day return to us . For the day I meet you .

    Love was born. He’s but a few years old and yet he know your love.

    Our love is more than any mans wealth more than any women’s lust.

     (unfinished..)

     

     

    Angels of my mind.

    Oh god tell me is this true is this what its all about . 

    is this the beginning the middle the end.

    My heart is missing her .

    Give me a sign from above.

    Let her find me. Let her love the unlovable

    Tell her I’m flawed tell her I’m broken .

    Lie not to her tell her if she loves me broken and all

    I will love her I will wed her I will father our love.

    I will bring about our legacy. 

     

    Love me and i will love you . 

    My heart and my last name . 

    Brandon Jackson 

                                                                                                                          

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

    5/24/2009

    lost

     

     

     

     

    I once was lost and now I am found my mind lays on the shores

     of the future . Not sure if i should wait

    or if i shoul leave the shore and venture inward to the unkown. alone

     

     

     

     

     

     

     

    5/19/2009

    My armor.

    Were to close now  though there seems to be no end to this pain. And when i close my eyes i pray for rain. I pray for rain to wash away this pain.

    Burn in hell or touch the sky

     

    Brandon’s love 

    I’m here at the cross roads and I don’t know where my life is going.

    I wish someone would pick me up .

    I wish someone would say give me your hand .

    Give me your trust and I will be there for you .

    I search and search but will I find someone worth my love.

    And when I find her I want her to say I’m here

    For you

    I love you for you don’t change.

    I love your humor your intellect you strength your anger your sadness and the passion and love with in.

    So when you make your decision at the cross roads. No matter what path you take . let me walk with you . let me be your companion for a life time.

    Be the one to give me what I need.


    My life is over the edge.

    5/18/2009

    no future

    Refelction on life. today i looked at a man younger than me . married and two kids. and yet i am not close to either