Fuck it

I used to have bad luck I used to see the devil in my dreams.

I used to call my father the greatest evil I could ever know.

And then I saw what I became under his watch my heart beat slower and slower

Colder and colder. Till all that remain was the cold feel of metal so all that remained was the tin man. A machine that lived a machine that fed on the tears of others ….

What do you got .

What do you got when you mix man with a devil

What do you got when the devil strives to be a an angel .

You get  a monster  a man a lover a child a son a friend .

I’m all these things I’ve bore the cross of the angel and the horns of a sinner.

I’ve lied I’ve cheat these we know but I’ve loved I’ve lost and I’ve dropped to my knees . I’ve been brought to my knees and still I remain.  

Judas

Forgive them lord for they know not what they do.

I never thought your name could be that of a Judas. You betray my trust with every breath .

I never thought it would be you  I should have known it was to good to be true .

Unlike the Lord I am less forgiving  Unlike the Lord you will fall before me.

Welcome to my world.

Where I’ve lied I’ve cheated I’ve done it all.

Welcome to my world where faith means nothing.

Where I hide my life where you seek the answers . Not because I’ve wronged you but because faith lives not in your arms like a child. Where my back is turned I feel the sharp blade of betrayal grace my back. As I await its thrust you say you love me . but you trust not in me. And I trust not in you .

In my world.

When the pen meets paper my thoughts echoed through time.

When my words graced your lips my hunger was quenched.

And when the final word was written you knew.

Sometimes you have to set fire to your house in order to see the snakes that live with in.

 

when all was lost it all came back. when i tried to live emotionless so came the feelings that sparked  the legend.

Another one titled you don’t love me no more.

 

How , how can you tell me you don’t love me .

When a ring is all I wanted for you . when my name was your with a yes .

How , how can you tell me love doesn’t live with in you

How can say goodbye.

With the loss of you I don’t dream with out you I all I can say

Is I can’t see you no more .

I can’t hold you no more I can’t kiss you I can’t make love to you no more.

Now memories hold me at night now. Its just me .

 

 

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