Sometimes you have to step back in order to step forward. Before me i see many road blocks.

 

I saw you  I saw you on these streets. My eyes locked on you two back and to the right. My music tearing through my mind. The past lives where I live the past lays but miles from me. I dare not sleep when it sleeps for I must wait for the return I must wait for the war. The battle the end.. My heart skipped but one beat as my I dare not take a breath in fear that you’d see me. But then I knew ……                                            .

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Me and you .

D@rkchild the great

I’ve been waiting for so long.

And I know that you’ve been waitng for me like

I’ve been waiting for you . Its time

Time to make my move.

Move

Let me be me.  Let me hold you let my words infect your mind.  Let this be but one many . Let these words echo through your mind. Lay there at night lay there thinking of me. As I lay there thinking of you. So when I  call answer. You say you know u shouldn’t but u want to . I know you know what I can do. So let me make my  move.  

I just want a me and you..

Mom ,

I remember I remember the three of us . You Steven and I . Living in an empty apartment. I remember the late nights I remember your tears keeping me awake . I remember the cries of my brother. I remember. I remember county pennies  in the back of the car . So my brother could eat. I remember those who laughed  I remember the seed planted by the pain . I remember eating the same damn thing every night . As we ate left overs from the restaurant. So when I’m down when my pain runs deep I remember. As I’m laid out in pain I remember and rise to my feet. To fight again.

 

I remember 

Your Loving son

What these Bitches want.

What do u want .

What is it you want from the child.

I give you take

My word not enough

My writing not enough

My devotion my heart my name

Give  you take u want I need.

My blood my sweat my tears tell me what you want

I think about all the times all I need was a helping hand. And yours was out wanting more from me. You demanded I gave but gave my soul i did . Now I must take now I must want.

D@rkchild...

 

 

Win or Lose I heard a few things . I heard that your heart is still broken I heard that your tears were your company at night. Please listen to my words when I hear your pain . I’m sorry hold on and stay strong . I’m sorry when you look in the mirror and your tears blur  your image. You are a angel in my eyes along with the lords.  Don’t cry for my tears fall for you. As I see your story written in the faces of all I see. I remember as a young boy seeing the one I loved in pain . So win or lose you always have  D@rkchild .  For every women touched by the evil with in man…. !

 

!                                                                              I  came  home  when u called I came home in search of you . I walked the lonely mile. With your name all I had to hear I walked the mile. For you I walked the trail of tears. Everyday every step when I wanted to give up your voice is all I heard begging me to come . And after it all the road came to an end . There I stood  there I stood alone looking for you. You waited not Now where do I go now whats a man with out a purpose.

Watch over me  listen to my worries. So that i may be better than i am  so that i will be the one...                                                 D@rkchild.

I had to  I had to strip you of it all . To make you see I’m the boss.

As a child you never listened to me . From birth you denied me . so I took your father before you could even speak his name. A year later you still denied me so I tried to take your life yet you came back defying me at every turn . Years later my lesson u still needed to learn as you came home from school sitting out side waiting for your sister to arrive to open the door. And night came and she never came home. I watched as you cried your self to sleep looking out the window for her. I watched as she were never to return . Your friend your hero gone…I thought I broke you that day but your will is to strong. Years and years passed as I waited to get you . Soon you married and thought you were untouchable. And then I took her I smiled as you rotted for two years  in pain. You were down  then I tried to take your mother your last hope. I watched as you sat there and received the news as the rock crumbled as you broke out into tears. I knew I could make you fold I knew I won. But your will is derived from her And she pulled through. What must I do what must I do to win this war to make you fall.

 

My will lives even when my heart is shattered…

My Baby girl..

You must learn this world . The hard way don’t cry when they come for you. Don’t let  prey on your  fears as the search for your tears.

I will always be there for you   now and forever. Hold your head high . And in the event of my demise don’t cry hold on my angel. You are but a image of my self. May you have all the good I hold  may my wrongs never make your time on earth . My words are but lessons I’ve seen my words are but glimpses of my life.  Listen and learn……

Never again  they keep calling  calling…

I can’t do these things Lord please don’t fail me

Lord .

Never again will I want for  someone who doesn’t want me

Lord why would you allow me to be made a fool why lord would .You make me a victim  of my emotions..  I used to pray to you for one chance and when my answers went un heard I  whispered no more as the tears would fall from my eyes.

Never again

Never again will I

Want whats never was mine…

Brandon to many D@rkchild to the world.  The trial of the century ….

Day one in the trial  The world vs. D@rkchild aka Brandon.

We can feel the tent ion building as the defendant approaches the stand. I do sware to tell the truth and nothing but the truth. Brandon what say you to the charges. Your facing.

I’m as guilty as any other man walking the streets . How can u dare say  my life my decision have doomed. Me . I’ve fallen countless times and the world wasn’t there to pick me up it was I  and the faith I have  it was I  and I alone. Were you there the nights I went hungry were u there world the days I cried my self to sleep I think not. So if I’m guilty of the crimes in my life then world so are u.  World I condemn you  the charge murder  and neglect . for all those who have fallen while others turn the other cheek…  
Your honor .. I demand a verdict….

 

Not guilty…

 

I hope you mean it when you shout it .
I hope your mouth is backed by the courage your heart. Has  call me again . Don’t be scared stand for yours Be brave talk your shit don’t be a whisper a breath  on the machine. Let me hear your threats let me  hear you call me out. Demand yours . And we can settle it in the streets.

Because I don’t give a fuck about you  and you don’t give a fuck about me .

So lets handle it in the streets….

J@dis...

 D@rkchild.

Get em….

Click click   I’m the problem solver.

Look from a far stare if you must. Breathe deep whisper ill words my way. Come for me in your dreams. Walk my path take what’s mine  if u dare. I’m soft spoken I whisper when I talk. But awaken whats with in and that will be all she wrote.

Whats yours is mine whats mines is mine and will always be mines…..

 

I will always be a threat…

When the music plays  when the first beat hits my chest. All I can do is close my eyes. And think of the words. As tears fall to my side. Listen as we danced in each others arms. Listen as the song tells our story . Listen as I whisper every word in your ears. As you slowly look in my eyes. And you tell me that you love me. Do I dare say it back do I dare . I dare being with you feel so right . In my arms is where are love began . In my arms a dream came to life.

More and more.

The feelings…..

 

Damn

I messed up this time .

But I ‘m gonna make it up to u .

I just can’t get over you . I’m sick of the lies

The se hateful words we use.

I wish that I could have forgotten you .

I wish that we  never were no I can’t say that

It’s the pain it’s the sorrow I feel . I thought I would be ok

If u walked away I tried to forget you .

But all I do is think of you .