Love one but punish them for another.

Perhaps I’m the one loved perhaps I’m the one punished.

Maybe I’m the past of another maybe I’m the reason for tears.

Maybe she cries for me maybe she punished him because of me .

Maybe his pain is mine. Maybe it’s a cycle that must be passed from lover to

Lover .

Hurt me I’ll hurt the next and the next.

Maybe

 

Fuck you

Fuck me ..

These are the words I hear these are the words I say .

These are feelings that run through my mind .

Death to me death to you .

Curse m life curse your birth .

Hate me like I hate you and know if death came

It would come for you for I’d make the deal with the devil

To see your last breath

Fuck you

Fuck me .

 

 My enemies….

I started doing this symbol years ago with someone i loved and when I came across this it gave me hope again I now do it alone. yet hope still lives in the symbol...... It lives             !

 

Is this so hard to belive. that  i feel the way i do if i wrote my feelings out on the wall for the                   world to read would you pass bye           or would you stop read every word and cry for                me for these words are about you  would you stop and write your own would let                 the world know that two out of  millions shared the same thought the same                     feeling . for when you leave a part of me will forever be on the wall. a part of me                will be with you .  D@rkchild the great....                                                                          !

 

Ballad of a dead man                                                                                                           Maybe death feels my mind maybe Love is a dream that can’t be maybe I’m a child running wild Maybe I’m a dead man not knowing . Picture me Picture me completely lost with the ones I love screaming murder Picture the casket black with chrome trim White lining me hands crossed with darkness in my eyes . . Picture my soul standing there watching you say your good byes. Or Listen for me as the gun cocks as the shells ignite one after another Screaming through the air touching all that stand be fore them. Listen for my screams listen for yours. My mind is dark I know my heart darker I loved and then lost I lived then I died. I live in the shadows and die in the light . Listen to the sirens as they come listen to the men As they stand guns drawn blood on my hands. Remorse in my heart listen To the judge sentence me to death Two years pass and I’m sitting in a chair needles. In my arms Listen and listen and then my heart stops. And then I   . Darkchild ....

 

Sister and her man Pat

 

My sister and I 12 years seperated. A boy to a man a boy who had a hero who had only himself ..... time changes everything.

Friends and devils .

Lover and friends .

Those who touch the heart carry

both love and the sword in each hand.

Love me with one kill me with the other.

When it fall it dies when it dies it lives.

When it breathes it drowns when it drowns

It breathes.

The opposite of life the opposite of death..

Friends and devils.

 

Its me it’s the man in the mirror it’s the darkness it’s the light

Me and  me the twins that share one mind one body

Despise the pain despise past at my door. Knock once

Knock twice. As we stand two in one. As you tempt me

With the wants of yesterday as you tempt me with the wants

Of tomorrow. To any other you’re a angel to me you’re a devil..

I smile as the door opens the pain you hide behind your back my strength behind

The door.  And with a glance you know with a glance I  know death stands between us

Death breathes which soul will be his… and with the end of that breath pain meets strength the door shuts. And my wound deep but yours fatal….

 

D@rkchild... Lives

 

 

 

 

My mind

My mind drifts from darkness to light my mind

My drifts from sorrow to joy from joy to hopelessness.

My mind .

My mind thinks of you my mind thinks of her .

My  mind

Wonders are you her is she you will I feel the same when it ends.

Will

 

 

 

Lord  Help me

Perhaps I’m cursed perhaps my blessed.

Lord help me

As I lay her looking to the sky lord heal these broken wings.

My strength couldn’t carry the weight my mind bares my wings broke

From the chains  you caged me with . I need you once again to mend these the memories

To mend these thoughts .

So that the sickness that infects my mind will not infect this shell I call a home.

 

I   would

I would do it

To all those who know my story who know the heart ache and the glory.

I’d

I’d do it again and again .

For the child of the 80’s the man of the 90’s the

Lover of the new millennium .

I’d do it again .

I’d smile through the pain. I’d walk tall through the rain and seven years.

Into the future I walk the path with darkness to my feet

And all I have to say is

I would

I would do it again.

Machine

 

I feel what I feel I need what I need.

I touch you, you touch me . but the touch I feel not

Your warmth next to me . Could never defrost the ice

Around my heart. My heart beat not for love it beats not for

Hate. It just beats to sound of music to the sound of life.

Behind the skin behind the muscle lives the soul of a machine.

Machine that dreamed of being a man the man that dreamed of being

A machine. To not feel the pain to not feel the forgotten.

 

 

 

Pots and Pans.

 

I remember days so far ago. Before the marriage before the ex’s .

Before the heart ache. I remember a girl that I loved I remember a girl that true

We fought but true we loved. Call me and I would come. When night fell you looked for me when night fell you called out and I came.

And one day I night came then day then night

And you were gone. I looked for you like you’d look for me .

And till this day I still can’t find you .

Years have passed and I haven’t forgotten you

My first but not my last.

My hero

My friend

My sister.

 

 

 

Kill me Now

Tell me why do I feel this way when you walk bye .

Tell me why do I hate the way it ended .

Tell me why do I look at you

Tell me why I’m numb

Numb to your eyes

Your eyes I once stared into

Why I’m numb to your touch to your smile

Tell me

Why you left me calling  out to the sky .

Tell me why do ….

I was laying in bed close to 12am . my eyes closed my body tired. As my mind raced with thoughts. Some good some bad as I laid there my heart began to hurt and then a single tear fell . when you offer the hand of friendship and the words of another scorn you. Do you still leave your hand out. I sit here while another waits for me a room away .

I sit here