I did I slept with her.

I lied to your face .

I lied to her I told her you and I were through.

I made you think she was gone.

Late night calls and she was over I erased all memory of you.

The door opened and my heart was hers.

My secrets I could not hide the truth you found.

Take off my shirt take off my jeans.

Lay down with you

And die with you you have aids but you don’t tell me

You kiss me you love me saying you want more and more.

That I’m all you wanted. And how you wish this could last forever. But forever is but a few years.

Filled with sickness and tears you fall first then me.

Please don’t stop

Please don’t stop your body is making me want more and more.

Your kisses devour my soul .

Please don’t stop saying my name.

Tell me what you want me to do just don’t stop and I won’t stop

Call your name I will

Tell you I want I, I do .

Pull your hair I will.

A lost poem

I can picture you with no clothes on.

As I sit here looking back watching you lay there.

Calling me to be with no clothes on.

I’m attracted to you and I can’t help but think of you with no clothes on.

And when were out and about when I look at you I can’t help it I’m addicted to you .

So when your laying there with no clothes on.

My super hero my lady

My lady she’s knows when I lie she knows my truth

My dreams my desires. My lust my fears my wonder woman.

Her strength hold me up when I fall her courage allows her to stand up against those

Who wish us harm.

She’s more than a woman she’s more than my hero.

With a kiss I’m down on my knees with a I love you I’m forever trapped.

In her world.

My wonder woman knows that she’s the only one for me.

I told hell I’d be right back . Given another chance to do wrong . I used to give a damn now I don’t give a fuck. Put the chrome to my throat close my eyes as my teeth grind against the barrel.

I can taste the oil I can taste the lead. My hands shaking my heart beat less. My blood on the walls my skull fragmented my eyes locked in deaths stare.

She doesn’t call she doesn’t answer. She gone this you know this is ok. You’ve loved alone you’ve cried alone. Alone is where prospered alone is where you learned. Maybe you weren’t ready but you will be. So hold your heart and it to shall be ready.

If I were to lay down this night of nights and fail to rise in the morrow. This is what I would say from the skys above or the hells below.

Bury me nothing more nothing less.

Hold my mother for I’m sure she will be a mess.

Tell my father I love you as much as monster could love its creator.

And my brother be everything I’m not be loving .

Be humble strength is a weakness.

Love is a strength.

Tell my sister the 8 years we spent apart changed us this I know . But I will always remember the bond we shared me 8 and her 14.

Tell her I never forgave her for leaving me.

My hero she was supposed to teach me the world.

The little things. How to talk to the ladies . How to dance the little things.

And my heart still cries out for that but that was then and this is now.

I loved you all.

Drink with me.

Drink with me.

 One after another hold me in your hands. Allow me to infect your soul allow me to ruin your life. Destroy your family. Allow me to give you reason to beat your wife allow me to be the reason you arrive home beating your children. So that when your family sees you fear is in there heart. Allow me to be the reason your wife wishes you’d die. .

My return my rebirth .

I was once lost like light in the abyss.

And the journey back to life was one filled with tears. The choices I made nearly lead me a stray . The choices I made , I made knowing it would bring about my end. I wanted it to end but to be at the end . And know you have more to do means you have to go back and undo the wrongs. Sometimes saying I’m sorry won’t resolve the problem sometimes your hated. Sometimes your forgiven. Expect the worst and pray for the best. And know your only human know you can cry know you can be hurt. Like the pain you caused and then in your heart you will be forgiven.

USDA.

Let me begin with a story from the book of creation.

The lord knows I try .

The lord know I try to do the right things. The lord knows my heart means well .

But my mind knows nothing but wrong.

The lord knows that my first breathe every day is to smile.

And my last breathe is filled with stress.

And how my actions will bring about my success or my down fall.

I know this for each step I take brings me closer to my end to the day I’m judged

For the sins of man . For the wrongs for my rights the lives I’ve touched the tears I’ve shed.

Starting over just isn’t that easy .

How do I breathe with out you here by my side. When your heart is where I lay my head.

I guess the joke was on me . As you lay in the arms . Of another some say that I still dream of you . But that’s a lie your but a memory a reminder of what I don’t want a reminder of what I don’t need. Of what its not about the lies you told . The emotions you didn’t share. So so bye leave my life like you entered it .

I’m not your man but were more than friends.

I want more but you keep me at bay I want you but you don’t want me . And when were embraced in the throws of passion you scream I’m yours tell me where I got confused. You kiss me you hug me you tell me I’m all you need .