Can I come home.

So I pray for the strength to carry on .

I pray that the lord will let me come home one day .

My dad is a stranger and my mothers losing it .

What can I do as I pray for the strength.

The strength to fight the temptations of lust.

Keep me strong keep me faithful to the ones I love.

Lord  when you steal back your last breath from my lungs.

Know I have questions only you can answer. For when my judgment day comes its you that will owe me a answer to.

 

 

The day Jadis meet Judas.

The reflection in the mirror.

Judas I never thought it would be you .

I never thought you would betray me like the others.

When I cried I looked to you  when my heart broke I looked to you .

Dear Judas have you looked at your self lately.

If I parish so do you .

So I look not you for help anymore  I look not to you .

For answers. I seek destruction I seek lust I seek happiness.

Blindly vengefully hopelessly

10 days until the birth of it all. D@rkchild. i've come so far. i'm going to be 4 years. old.  I may have been born June 7th but i found my self Dec 25th.

Porn star.

My girl my girl .

She has no fears no want inhibitions.

She looks at me with lust with hunger with desire.

When I run my fingers through her hair she says I want more.

She says hold me take it yours she says tell me .

Tell me you love it. I scream I love it .

And when night falls she calls my name screaming.

As she wraps me in her legs. Saying love me like its our first time.

And when the sun peaks over the horizon she remains in my arms.

Even the one can be a your own Porn star.  

Pinocchio story Part II

I found love even as a machine.

I found pain as a machine.

I found hope

I found a liar

And now all I want

Is not to be a real boy not to be a real man.

I want to take my dream back I want to .

Want but not touch .

I’m in love with the dream but no one told me the dream

Comes with disappointment . it comes with tears.

I just wanted to be a real boy .

But all I got is real boys pains.

D@rkchild.

 

D@rkchild presents

 

Tin Man

 I just want to be a real boy .

I just want to be a real man.

When you look below my skin its not a heart you see.

But gears and flashing lights. My blood is cold without warmth.

In my eyes you don’t see hope or pain all you see is hollow machine.

I just want to be real

I just want to feel .

Feel what you feel I want to feel hope love and pain.

I just want to be real

I just want to be a real man .

Not a shell so when will machine be more than a machine.

When will I be Brandon.

Me and you .

Where do we begin.

Do we begin with the a look .

A thought a feeling of you and me .

And how you will never see me like I see you.

I want to pick up the broken pieces of your life.

I want to carry the burdens of your life and make

Something more .

I want to rise like a phoenix from the ashes of your burnt dreams.

And show you life lives again. Dreams can be dreamt again .

Believe in me and we shall live again.

But will you see in me what I see in you.

 

Goon squad lives....

2:34am

And I can’t sleep reflection is can be weapon in its self.

4 years of loses 4 years. I’ve loved so little but lost so much . some emotions I hold in and some I lash out my hands no matter how strong they are they can’t hold back fate they can’t hold back the unknown. With the loses scars remain on my heart . I try to compensate with friendships . but even they fade even they can disappoint you . I feel like I’m standing at the window of life watching it pass me bye like I am forgotten days pass as I stand there in the window. And with each passing day a piece of me escapes the prison of the window. And as days pass I grow older as days pass hope does to . what can one do when he is haunted at 2:34am in the morning .

Two

I know we haven’t talked in a while .

But I have something to say I’ve talked to everyone I k now but I don’t know what to do .

Its leaving me angry its leaving me sleepless.

Tell me what to do .

I fell only to stand to fall again.

Her phone doesn’t ring anymore her number is changed.

I knock at her door but she’s never home what should I do .

When love runs from you .

How can you catch what doesn’t want to be caught.

 

I was wrong

I was wrong for falling in love

It was a feeling I can’t explain.

As my heart beat for her.

Thinking with the wrong head had me making mistakes.

That’s what I get for falling love .

It felt like harmony with her in my hands

Holding her kissing her . where did   I go wrong .

I thought love would save everything but .

I was wrong.

We don’t care...

I’m guilty of these feelings.

I’m a sinner a liar I am all these things.

If I dare lie and say I don’t love you I’m guilty of

Loving you lusting for you.

I did this I told you how I feel with my eyes with my heart.

But fear would never let it come from my lips.

So  I watch you  love another. And all I want to do is undo my mistake.

And tell you love lives in me.

Love for you .

Will you be what you are to me.

The one my only ..

 

Enough with the sorrow..

Every time I see you I run out of words.

Every time I see you I wonder if you feel the same way about me.

I wonder if you know.

That you’re so damn beautiful to me.

Beautiful.

Like the winds your smile carries me away from  the wrongs of my day.

And with a kiss I forget all that caused me pain before you.

I remember not

I remember what its like to smile

What butterflies feel like .

What hope is

Miss Beautiful

 

Blessed she is

Blessed she says

Blessed for what .

As I look at her in her picture .

Of her and another not remembering she

Cheated on me with him . How can you be so heartless

Fucking bitch . I remember the feelings I had that day you told me. Scratch that  your friend told me . The coldest story ever told as I stood there holding back my emotions as she told me how you and him dated.

I woke up this morning  thinking of you .

You robbed me of my sleep and my heart.

And now all I have is the music  the music of sorrow

And the pen.

So let the feelings flow 

Let my  mind rest for

When I think of you  my heart aches

My eyes weep

My mind wonders.

The return

Flowers in my hand

A smile on my face.

I jump in my car engine revving music echoing through the city.

All I can do is think about you .

Racing down the highway doing 95 in a 65 . Because I can’t wait to be by your side.

As I pull up my heart skips a beat . Because what I have in my pocket will change my life.

I pull up I see you .

And then I see him .

My mind wonders why and then my eyes answer .
You

Cheater.