Love the angel i would give my soul to .

Tell me what must i do what must endure.  temptation

to be with you I stand here admiring .

Do I become what i must .

Or do i take from others.  What's his will be mine .

the route of a conquer . Or the route of a saint. praying and waiting for love the grace me .

tell me Love and I shall do.

Anderson how do I tell her . How do i tell her that her voice i adore .

Her smile i long for . intimacy  i dare not want for my joy comes from her.

Not what she can do for me via lust or wealth .

But the momentary joy from a joke . A heart warming conversation.

How do I .

My queen she turns her back on me when my anger peaks .

She hides her eyes from the madness of men .

she knows that my heart is my armor. And my mind is my sword.

When blood comes and my enemies fall its her love that cages the monster.

And with out her in my life I will never rest for WAR is all i know.

Love me again my queen  turn to me  hold me wipe the pain from my eyes. as the blood stains my hands.

She cries because of me . She cries for the world scares her .

she was looking for a love but the world gave her doubt.

And when he’s gone all that remains is the pain.

the pain of being alone.

the pains of the day the pains of the night. she sees me when she’s all alone.

tears fall and anger fills her heart as she speaks my name. days pass feelings fade .

and tears are no more.

and all that remains in the day the moment when a heart says i’m ok love me again .

As I lay here and you walk the earth with hate in your heart. Know that in death I will always have unconditional love for you .

As the angels stand above my tomb silencing my screams for you . Asking for forgiveness. Asking for your love  your tears. To touch the ground that holds me down.

holding me from touching your face. from wiping those tears i brought to your face away .

You will always be in my heart. the mother the father .

Today was a day of days I was brought to tears. With everything hitting me at once. I derive my strength from my anger. But when you have a feeling of hopelessness i am but a man . beaten

Judge me  tell me my wrongs. Teach me right from wrong .  Where i have hated teach me to love before you right me off.

I am but a man wanting to be more .

Dear Anderson,

I hope I can see my self in you .

I hope me and your mother love will last for a lifetime .

i hope you love me and admire me .

I hope you will always want to talk to me .

For when you fall ill be there.

When the nights scare you call my name and i will stand with you against the shadows of the night.

Your one and only father .

Brandon Jackson

This morning i dreamed that you were next to me .

This morning i awoke to you by my side.

I awoke to the touch of love. to the cries of me .

In another room . As i laid there with nothing but darkness and the touch of a cold pillow.

I knew the truth .

I dreamed a lie.

Dear Anderson,

At night i cant sleep haunted by the last words of my ex . Its not what she said its the intent behind it.

The repercussions  of are act I can deal with for i never back down from my responsibilities.  I just don't know how to process it all.

Time will heal that wound .

I have conceded to the thought that maybe two people can be cancer to each other despite there  desire for each other. And despite how much you try to be together the world will see to it that you are apart.  I hate to admit it but maybe that's the only answer.

I sat down and talked to this woman who reminds me of a part of my life i lived 5 years ago. Her story sparks memories of love that i once shared for another. As I sat there talking to her i could see the hopeless ness she had for happiness. And the man she hopes to find one day i was that man for another A feeling i dare not enter into again for it left me broken when it all ended . As her eyes watered I hope to give her inspiration. But all i can give her is my words and hope they fall on her worried heart.

And  as I share my bed my life with no one I do so knowingly that to lay alone may be taxing at times but its a necessity to keep the mind at peace.

Br@ndon J@ckson

Have you ever laid there and said to your self. The beginning and the end can never be the same .

Life has before you two doors. which do you take freedom to the unknown . And the other the past.

both doors have there ups and downs. One you know but you ask your self is it better than the unknown do you go for the sure thing or the unknown.

You tell your self its love you tell your self its happiness . But is it a lie.

The unknown is lonely the unknown is a chance.

as i close my eyes and turn the knob.

Hater. Hater

You +a weak mind x insecurity = Hater.

You know how it goes

What did i say to make you hate me so .

what did i do to make you hate me.

Even though you hate me .

I still think of the .

You say you hate me and i reply i still love you .

How twisted love can be.

Dear anderson what are we to do .

I could never with out you .

i could never be with out you.

let me die young let me live for ever only if your by my side.

i want to i want to live forever.

So when the music of life plays dance with me .

dance with me love me .

Make me stare down on the earth and like a god amongst men .

let me touch the heavens let my name live with in you. let my name bare my face

and your heart . and as our children grow may they sing of are love may the sing of the day a man

loved a woman . and when i fall may you remember me. and i will stand at heavens gate waiting for you .

for we are eternal.

I stand out side your apt.

i stand out side your apt. with with a match in one hand and gas in another.

The math slowly drops to the ground and flames are given life.

Smoke fills the air. Sirens ring out through the air. people run from there homes.

and. there i stand. dead .

And with the breath of fire breathes the devil with in.

He comes out and darkness hides my rage a spark lights of the darkness .

he falls and there he lays.

Never chase the prey bring them to you.

I chase you .

@nderson J@ckson

Round and around we go.

I remember when i first meet you .

I used to be excited  to bad i would never guess what you would become .

and i just cant take it .

you cant decide if you love me or another .

round and round we go .

you say you love me  you say you hate me .

you hit me you kiss me . today you want a ring .

tomorrow you want me dead.

I’m done .

The life we shared is over today. The memories we shared filled these picture frames surrounding me

And now that your gone these memories fade and all is left is these empty picture frames.

sleepless nights

And as the thunder roars outside  and the sky cries.

And when morning comes all that's left of us is these empty frames.

They say your  attitude determines your latitude,

I'm high as a mothafucka fly as a mothafucka

I will touch the sky i will dance in the clouds the stars will shine down on me .

and if you stand with me or not . The music will play and we shall dance .

for my attitude determines my latitude.

So say what you want and do what you please.

because i will be me. never will i cry again .

when they say two wrongs don’t make a right .

then we were never meant to be together.

and this is ok .

My words may not mean nothing to many but.

its you i write to its you i hope to touch.

Remember my words remember my thoughts .

Thoughts of you when you look in the mirror see my eyes.

se my pain as its legacy lives on in you .

my life runs through your veins .

My son .

My love my everything .

Young Anderson Jackson .