I woke up screaming screaming

Fuck the world I’ve had it up to here

With all the things I see before me.

I woke up with tears in my eyes. And shame over head.

So as I took my first breathe of the day I screamed out

Fuck the world .

So as I walk the road of tears . know my mind is chaotic

Know that my feelings I don’t trust know that

If crossed your gonna get

Fuck you and fuck the world.

A picture  a picture

A picture can tell you many things.

It can write a story most good but some bad.

When you see it you may recall good things.

When I see it I may recall a future not written.

A future murdered at its birth.

Leaving a emptiness inside.

And as the picture sinks deep into my mind.

I can go back days

I can go back months.

Years.

And its there the picture is real its there the picture

Is my life  and its there I live for a moment as I gaze at

This picture of you in the present as I remember the past.

My friend I wish you well.

And I thank you.

For giving me life when I thought I was dead.

Hold up

Its time to stop

And listen to my words for they are me.

Picture my heart like a photograph ripped in two .

Picture my mind shattered from all its seen

Picture a shadow I call father

Picture a memory I call sister.

And a dream I call brother.

And a teacher I call mother.

These images are me they say a picture is worth  a thousand words.

So when I write this story may you feel every word.

I’ve buried love I’ve resurrected hope and buried a dream.

This is my diary this is my life 

And may you learn a lesson in that.

Drunk

I need a drunken girl to free me from this world I know.

I need a girl with out a care in the world.

Her speech slurred her make up smudged.

Dancing with stars above.

As she stumbles I laugh .

She says she loves me but I don’t know her name

She says she’s never done this before but its clear she

Has.

She takes I give she gives I take.

And the sun rises and she’s not the same girl I fell for late last night.

She’s far from what my eyes saw .

And so I grab my shirt look for my keys.

And as she moans the door closes

As I say no more drunken hot girls.

That fuck with my world.

 

I’m so fucking tired of never saying what I really want to say. I’m so tired of holding my words back .Everyone who knows me shall from this day forward know how I truly feel and it there numbers my dwindle but at least they will know how I feel. And so we shall start again I wrote to hide my feelings behind my alter ego but its time to start speaking for my self.

Tin man and dorthy.

Tin man loved her even though she dreamed of another.

She dreamed of the cowardly lion.

The lion roared but he trembled from his own roar.

His image she thought was his strength but his heart was weak.

While tin man was her might. And when the witches of the world came for her.

Its his axe they feared its his wisdom brought there end.

This she never saw for sometimes it’s the hero you never see.

While the posers roar it’s the hero with his eyes on the love not the honor…

 

 

 The Ski mask way.

Its what you’ve been wanting.

A thief in the night the dead man walking.

You want me to take rather than ask you want me.

To be the hand in the night . So when I take what I want.

Know my grasp will never let go.

I will hide my treasures from the world.

Hold them close press the emotions deep inside

Because what’s mine is mine and what’s yours is mine.

 

The Tin Man.

Brandon I dream of him.

Brandon I can see him in a crowd of many.

He loves me no he loves me not.

He is what I want but he’s what I can’t have.

His hearts broken yet his strength is unmatched.

I see in his eyes the hunger for my worth.

I see the us in his eyes but he knows not to smile

He knows not how to love.

He cries for me for he wants me .

Yet we can never be.

A prisoner of life a prisoner of the past.

He is

The Tin man.  He  is you.

 

 

The wake up

I don’t know what you’ve heard about me but I’m back.

To go up against me is to go up against many .

Mind is full alter egos ready to put a whole in your back.

Brandon the survivor test his will and its your that will bend.

Press D@rkchild and its war you will get I will plan plot strategize till your ass is laid out.
And when might can’t win the lover J@dis passion will take all that you love away with a a whisper with a look with a touch . As my words infect her mind as my words touch her soul what yours will be mine. And when your back is to the wall . And mercy is what you want. Stare into the eyes of the TIN man the soul less soldier as mercy is but a cry  and your end is but a after thought.

 

TIN Man, D@rkchild, Brandon & J@dis.

I used to write for a girl .

Who I could never have I used to write in search of her

Warm embrace.

I would close my eyes and think of her.

I would put every word down hopeing she would read

And think of me.

When the phone rang I hoped it was her

But the rain never turned to sunshine.

So the pen fell

So the embrace turned cold

I knew she read them

But the phone never rang

So the pen fell.

 

 

They left me no choice.

She says she was a girl of my dreams.

As she grabbed at my shirt lead me to

Temptation. Lead me to the sins of man

She replied you don’t have to love me

You don’t have to want me .

Because I want you.

And what I feel isn’t love just lust.

So lead me to temptation.

And let me drink.

 

 

 

She deserved better.

I was with this girl .

She cared for me this I know her love spanned years.

So one day she knocked at my door.

Remembering a memory of how I was but who I am

Is something totally different.

She stayed then she left in the night in tears

For the dream she had I didn’t share

Maybe I was selfish .

Maybe I was unworthy of her.

So days after she wiped me from her life.

All she wanted was my time and I gave her

Painful memories.

 

Brandon

A Dream

I still hold her in dear in my dreams.

Throughout the day its my eyes I close its her I see

And as I lick my lips its hers that I taste.

At times I reach for her but she’s not there I reach for the dream

That can’t be  for time has passed days have been lived

And I see her differently as she looks at me.
And a stranger lives in her eyes.

And as we pass I look back waiting for her to remember what we had.

But she never turns as tears fall from my eyes.

 

 

 

I’m Clyde the nightmare.

I have nightmares 

I have nightmares ,nightmares. I wake up shook up with sweat on my brow

And I f you could see what I see you’d wish for death.

Fuck your man I wish he was dead.

Nightmares of your love of the birth of his likeness

Laying with my love .

Rub and rub it in my face as my anger builds and builds

Till I become his nightmare.

 

Nights like this

Its night like this that I wish love would knock at my door.

Love wasn’t her name she was nothing but lust. No names no I love you’s

Just lust sweat moans. And then no goodbyes

Her name Maria she wanted a kiss I’d give her a laugh she wanted my heart

But me doing that was a thing of the past.
She was to be married I cared

I cared not I laughed as the ring he dropped to bending knee and gave his heart with

Was covered in me.

She would say if you want me just say the word and its you and me.

I want to be yours.

 

 

Radio

Let the song play let the music rumble through my home .

Let my ears drown in the beat let the music collapse my barriers of my heart

And so the floods come so let it rain and then my mind will be free to express my love

My pain my dreams  of her and then it will win her heart or tell the story of love lost .

So let the radio play let me sing let me think and when the pen hits the paper my mind.

Will share with you the secrets I dare not tell.

 

 

 

 

 

Never

Will you have a friend like me . I remember memories so vividly.

You will never have a friend like me .

Just me and you like family . what’s mine is yours and what yours is mine.

Your enemies fear your fall for they will have to deal with me.

My friend how can be there for you when they come for the.

How can I rid the tears from your eyes.

Let me carry your weight let me wipe your tears

 My friend my love to be.

I love you for who you are your imperfections.

Make me want you your downfalls I adore for protect your weakness

For you will never find a friend like me.

So my friend here I stand saying that I’m in love with the.

 

Yesterday

Yesterday I stared at your picture and I felt . That life wasn’t worth

Living  with out you next to me.

Yesterday I knew you were the world to me.

And only the lord knows if I can have more than a picture

If I can have the warmth the love of my life right next to me.

Yesterday

Yesterday turned into today where is the strength. To make it till tomorrow.

 

Highschool Love

Hello I’m 17 teen my name is Cyde.

I am so un cool and this is no lie.

I’m in love with a girl who doesn’t know

That she means the world to me. As the bell rings. I follow her day dreaming.

That we could be friends no boyfriend and girlfriend.

As I enter class and sit behind her . I  her voice and my heart melts. As she talks to her friend. In my heart I feel the courage building to ask her would she like to go to the movies.

Excuse me Bonnie my name is Clyde would you like to go out with me?

 

 

Last night

I tried to call but my mind would let me call.

With the way I feel I could

Can you feel me

Can you touch me

Can you trust me

Can you

Can you love me.

Remember how I was broken and empty before you came into my life.

And now

And now you have me feeling this way. Lost

I can’t function with these thoughts of you.

If I promise that I will never leave will you

Love me

With you trust me

Will you give me what you never gave another .

Will you be there when my dreams fade will you be there

When the devil comes knocking at my door.

 

Thanks for lighting the flame with in my heart.

D@rkchild.  

 

 

In my mind

In m mind there will always be love.

In my mind there will always be the love we shared.

Just because what we had ended doesn’t mean it doesn’t still live on

In my mind I’ll always be the love you lost.

In my mind we live .

In my mind you never fell.

For my arms will be there to catch you. And they say if you love something

You have to let it go.

So go and if you come back I’ll love you that much more. But if you don’t I’ll know

I’ll know its something I had to love in order to grow.

D@rkchild.

 

What goes around comes back around.

I meet her like a few months ago.

She through me aside for another.

And this can’t be how we say goodbye.

My angel with a darks side. And I the dark side with a angel within

I thought it was me and you but I was wrong.

Don’t want to think about you

Don’t want to speak about her.

I should have seen it in her eyes.

That she would play me with a lie.

A few months pass and what she did to me .

Was done to her.

She asked for my hand again . But I can’t be that man again.

To be judged to be lied to  be the one with tears in his eyes.

What goes around comes back around.

 

D@rkchild.

The second coming tonight i will write 10 or more i feel inspired ...

 

got alot of feelings to get out good and bad right and wrong.