Man or Myth

Brandon the man  made of skin  and bone .

Scars and bruises mark his 27 year walk on this shell he calls home.

My birth haunted with death  but with life.

My family torn from the stars one of many so close but so far .

My eyes deep my heart broken  and if you look deep enough you can see.

See past you can see the future. For my life is but a reflection given to me by you.

 

The Myth

D@rkchild made of steel and darkness.

Unscaved for my life is short but a child I am 3 years old . My home the mind and heart of my father.

And my family consist of one, one I watch over one I guide through the emotional hardships one I breathe life into when death call for him.

And when you look deep into the abyss which is my eyes look and you shall see but a small light for which hope lives.

I am D@rkchild the alter ego  the pen  to paper … the answer to the questions those who know me ask.

 

Life has me down as I lay here defeated touching the dark side.

As I lay here not wanting to wake I hear the voices of my past.

Haunt me as I lay here remembering every wrong I ever did from the

Cheating the lying the betrayals of those I shared a bed with. I feel every tear

I caused to fall I feel every word spoken in pain. I know my wrongs will never be righted

I know the pain I cause will forever mark my path my present my future. This I know

But when my name is remembered will it be in shame or fame.

And with these thoughts I cry with these thoughts I laugh

And as the angel stands there waiting to take me away I reply

I’m not ready to go. Let me rise once again.

 

 

She cries

I want to be in your bed.

 

 

 

I am the one you deny

I am the one who you won’t let in your bed.

You say we can’t be but I know we can.

And I’ll love you like no other man .

Let me start with a word then a kiss and slow touching

Till you’ve reached bliss.

So why

Why deny the man that looks at you like no other

Why deny the man who lips you desire.

So when I call answer when I knock answer the door.

And when I’m but a breath away let our lips touch let or tongues touch

Let me grab your side let  my hands wonder and when we are one you’ll

Never deny who I am.

The lover the first D@rkchild..

Cocaine Dreams and Crack whore fantasies

Silver Back the last words.

Last words of the ghost in the shell.

Watching her hips watching her style .

Bring death to her door. Watching a girl

Whore her self one man at a time. Watching

Her chase the dream chase the man the monster the demon

Kiss me again never. As you kiss the scum of the earth your name

Never to be said again. As the news plays I fear its you Ill see .

And death will come one fuck at a time.

Hear my hunger hear my thirst.

As I sit there watching my capture feed his mouth .

As I sit there looking in his eyes.

Some call him Sir I call him motherfucker

Some  fear his whip some fear his chains.

Give me the chain give me the whip. I fear them not.

Just give me the chance to break them give me the chance.

To grasp the whip and bring him to his knees.

Beat me starve me as my body starves my anger grows fat. With the

Thoughts of your demise.

Some call him Robert

I call him father.

Bonnie and Clyde the untold feelings.

 

These feelings run deep these feelings run to the core .

The feeling of her in my arms her warmth embracing my soul

Feeding its hunger its lust for her tasting her lips filling my abyss

Her touch sinking in to my skin her mark forever burned into my armor

Bonnie

To feel her is to touch the heavens to feel her is to heaven on earth. And to know

She’s gone is to  live hell on earth. Another made her cry another made her cry out my name.

D@rkchild the beast dark child the angel with the heart of a devil the last known silverback. The last one I loved the last one whose heart bleed for me.

 

Its to late to come back to me .

Its to late to undo the tears.

Its to late to dream the dream of me and you .

For you and I are never more. I’ve seen tomorrow

And your not by my side. I’ve closed my eyes and its your face I don’t see

So its

To late to tell me sorry 

Its to late to take another chance on you.

Your lies are all un true.

I cared for you but you never knew.

Its to late

To kiss you goodbye so

As my eyes close and my breathe fades and a tear falls

I’m letting go ..

Of you.

 

3months of Hell.

I’ve gone through to much shit to die today.

I’ve been beat to my knees. Break my will they tried .

Lie I did to save my soul.

Deprive me of love deprive me of food. And when that failed

Take my skin take my flesh with every swipe of the belt . As she screamed in the distance more.

Break him make him regret the day he entered this house. As tears fell I looked up at him and he retreated for he knew in my eyes the hate I had for him grew to become the monster deep inside.

 

Now I lay my head down to sleep to the devils

Now I lay my head down to the angels of life.

She kissed me  goodnight as I laid there a boy in the night.

Dream of money dream of smiles they say

They never say watch out for the devil watch out for the screams the monsters

In my dreams I stand alone in the darkness

Hearing my cries watching my past

Watching love come

Watching love go .

Seeing my mother hold my hand

As I walk out of my fathers life.

Where a dad would become a stranger

To a enemy back to a stranger.

Look in his eyes and see your self.

Look in his eyes and see the wrongs

He can never right.

Look in his eyes and see the abyss of man.

And now I lay my head down to sleep

 

 

 

I meet a queen in Tyler I really did her name was Queen Qatavia  had more bling on then Fiddy.... She wanted me but i don't date queens i wish i could have taken a picture ..... A queen at a laundry mat....

My last day in town .. hanging with friends

 

Good morning

Good morning to the world for its me the son the world forgot.

Good morning love good morning pain . I’ve seen you both in my dreams

I’ve seen you both in my nightmares. You have names like Carmen you have names like Brandi, Katy, Keisha, Kristina and Christina Mandy and Amanda and last but not least Dani and Daniel .

Good morning one and all  my dreams and my nightmares.

For when these eyes close you live in my mind for only I to see.

I remember the good I remember the bad and I dream of the what if’s

If I had a million dollars I’d spend it all in one day.

I’d wash away the pain I see I’d give to the world as she gave to me.

Buy those around me a smile.

Kiss the ground I walk on touch the heavens above for that day would be my last.