M y earliest memory is not of joy  my earliest memory

Lets go back to the young age of 4 where I walked in through my front

Door a hot sunny day my sister in the drive way riding her yellow bannaha

Bike. And me wanting my teddy bear so I walked into the house and to my right I

Hear screams from my mother be hind close doors. I sat outside her door crying

Banging on the door and he opened the door I saw past him and tears in her eyes .

He screamed for my sister to take me out she grabbed my hand but I knew I knew

That making her cry wasn’t right and that image burned in my mind. Year past and i

Found out that bastered beat my beloved one..  And this I remember this I can recall like

Yesterday….

Risk

 

I know I sound so stupid saying this.

But I am willing to reach out my hand to you

And this is no lie

You’re a rose with thorns I know .

But I I’m willing to look past the pain that comes

With you for the chance to hold a the rose that is you .

Let me reach you before your petals fall and die.

Let me breath life into to the rose that another let go

Its all about the

Risk

 

Do you remember the first time you saw someone ,

Do you remember the first time they walked by and you

Made eye contact and in that moment you your eyes locked

You lived a life time in  a second you married them you kissed them

You grew old by there side.

And do you remember as they kept walking because you

Were afraid to say something.

I do

I remember and I have something to say this time…

Brandon…

 

Girl you don’t know what you are ..

You are my everything

Please don’t go

Girl I feel like a angel cast down from the heavens above.

And your remain in the clouds above.
Please don’t go

Girl give me the chance to get back in the graces of the man above

So that we can be together .

For now I stand on the highest mountain top with my hands to the sky

Wanting you .

When I fell to earth the clouds filled with rain for the sorrow you felt when I

Left your side. And now the skys are clear and the suns radiant heat burns my wings

And I fear you’ve walked away from me.

I’ve been missing you .

I’ve been thinking about you

Damn I miss you I never thought

That I would feel like this I never

Thought you would hurt me like this

I’ve been missing you like crazy and

As days turn into night I often look at the

Door hoping you will be on the other side.

Its been so long since I’ve seen your face

And I fear that your image will fade from my memories

Your touch I struggle to remember every day. Your voice I

Can’t recall what am I to do when I say I miss you like crazy .

And I long for you

My lord somebody help me….

The Omen the Reign’s return

Maybe I’m crazy for these thoughts

Maybe it’s the love in me maybe it’s the

Lust in me that yurns  for the answers that the Lord

Can’t give me I’ve sat here waiting for your answer months

Pass years pass. And so I the question that haunts me

The what if  that I ponder . I know the path I choice most won’t go down

But its all clear

And with the end of this sentence  The Reign is here…

By the way I hope his grip is tight for I don’t back down….

Hate it or love it .

Growing up my family split and confused.

Mother crying herself to sleep while I laid in

The next room with my pillow over my head

In a apartment full of nothing a chair  and a crib.

We lived  no money with a baby brother I would

Leave in the morning at the young age of 13 riding around

Parking lots looking for money riding around picking up lotto

Tickets hoping to find a winner to bring home to my mother so

That my brother could have something to eat so her tears would

Fade as night fall. My dad really wasn’t around nor was my brothers

Father. We could afford to buy groceries so we waited every day for my moms

Friend to bring food from the restaurant  he worked at.

Hate it or love it . That’s the longest year of my life… 365

Of sorrow…

Brandon

 

How do you want it.

How do you want it

Mama sita..

On the bed on the kitchen

Table  up against the wall.

In the shower tell me .

How do you want it .

And let me give it you

Let me be the one to give

You the treasures of the night

Let me be the one in your mind

And the one between your thighs.

Just tell me

How do you want it…

Br@ndi,

 

Today & Tomorrow….

Your story is a complicated one none the less.
I feel as though the story was never finished if

It would have ended in hate I could dismiss the

Feelings of Tomorrow . But the actions of today

Trouble my mind. They trouble my thoughts. I was

Told to express the suppressed feelings but . I know

The life we live today could never be the feelings

Of Tomorrow. Some say leave you in today and others

Say bring you into tomorrow….

 

Miss Lady you are my life your are more than my love you’re my reason for .

Living Miss Lady I need you by my side.

Miss Lady I can’t hide behind these words

I stare at you with hunger in my eyes.

As you we walk side by side one day may

It end in I do may it end in I love you .

Miss Lady won’t you be my life my

Wife

Won’t you say I do

Miss Lady

Or Mrs. Jackson to be….

C@RmEn,

 

Today as I sat there at work someone told me . I can see the pain in your eyes

Pain I reply. What are you talking about . I’m fine I reply I see that you have

Thoughts of some girl on your mind she replied. I see that part of you has something

Still to say on the matter.  Not sure if its an I love you or I don’t need you …

So begins this poem I call yesterday …

Yesterday

Yesterday you loved me yesterday you said that are love

Would never grow old. But yesterday it turned from love

To sorrow

Yesterday you called and you told me that I should sign and let go.

And your new boyfriend wants to spend the rest of his life with the.

And as word rose the phone call ended with pain toward the .

Some say that you only wanted to hurt me. Some say that yesterday

Was a dream only dreamt by me. So when I talk about yesterday they

Say that day you should never look back on the .

So as I lived in the town of yesterday I would see you every damn day .

And to be so close but so far away

So I packed up moved and got rid of everything I own .
For today is today and tomorrow is tomorrow and I can’t look back

On yesterday…..

 

Look me and him

Look

I don’t know why he lies I don’t know why

He  hurt you like he did I don’t know the answers

I don’t know the reasons why the good are wronged

But I do know the difference between me and him.

As he throws your love out the door I walk pass and

See the treasure of your love at my feet I gladly pick it

Up and hold it near. And when he raised a hand to you

And every blow landed and part of you laid there on the floor

In tears . I’d gladly take ever hit you took I’d gladly walk proudly

With every bruise every busted lip every bruised ribs. To erase the pain

You walk with every day . I’m sorry for the pain is to great for you

Let me in and I’ll hold you up

For me and him will never be a mirror image…

I’m not the man of your dreams but the man that will wake you from your

Nightmare.

Myspace… to the email to the chat room to the bedroom.

I log on every night . I can’t wait for your messages . Please

Send me  a message so that I can know that your there ….

Sign on I want to chat. LOL is what your type. As I write and

Write you say that you like every word but I can’t take this anymore.

I can’t settle for the log on I can’t  settle for the messages I want more.

I want to hold you I want to be inside. I want to feel what you have to give.

With each stroke I beg for more … as you scream yes I reply I want you with

Every thrust I feel it I feel it draw near… As you say not yet…. I want more …

 So log on…

When the music end

When the song draws to its end

I think of the first time I heard the

Song that would change my life the

Song that will forever link the beginning

To the end the song that touched me that

Touched you . So when that song begins

Remember when that song plays turn it up

Louder and louder let the speakers crack let

The neighbors complain and when the music

Ends remember the link remember the curse.

Everytime the song plays cry scream or remember

The love….

Does it make you

Does it make you mad when I

Talk when I put my feelings for you

On paper does it fill your heart with heat

Does it make hate every word I write does it

Well does it touch you does it sink deep in your mind

Does it burn your mind the memory of every word.

May it I hope it does

For your on my mind . Bitch

My time is up and its me its time to get out of jail

Its time for me to walk the walk talk the talk . I watched

From the window as you lived in the world that I called mine.

As I sat there and sat there I knew when I emerge its my time.

I could careless as you cross my path…

Front or back

How

Do you want that tell me how do you want that

Front or back

Tell me

Tell me how you want that.

I want that

I want that let me tell you what I need

I need you between my knees i want it so that you can’t

Breathe..

So that’s how you want that … From the front to the back

You will enjoy every bit of it…

 

 

 

 

Time

How come we don’t have time how come when I call

How come when I see you

How come you turn and walk away and when I call your name

You don’t look in m direction.

And now its to late for me to catch up to the dream we shared.

To the dream where we lived.

How come it all changed when I

When I still want to dream a dream of two .

You say that you love another and yet you still call

Me  why do you hurt me

Why is my love a game to you why

How come

How come my heart is game in which you love to play.

The purpose.

I thought no I knew my purpose

The D@rkchild rendition  so let me begin

I know my purpose in life I thought I was

To be the next president no a fire fighter

No a police officer  a son a brother a father

But now I that I meet you I know my purpose

With you in my life I know that m purpose is to

Let you treat me like shit I know that my purpose

Is to let you walk over me . As tears fall I know my purpose

Is to let you break my heart I know that my purpose is to

Stay here while your out while you treat another with passion

And you come home to scorn me with your words and touch me

With your rage. With each hit you say you love me with each hit you say

That your sorry blame me and I sit there thinking its me .

But know I know my purpose as you lay there asleep I know my purpose

As each breath you take is borrowed. And when morning comes I awake and you

Don’t . and know you know your purpose know you know that

You were born not treat me like shit but to

Teach me a lesson in that I deserve better.

Convict the D@rkchild sentence…24- to life…

At the age of 24 he who lived in the mind of one

The alter ego was given life. It seem only fitting that the

Alter ego was born the site was created on Christmas day .

I fell dead months prior and rose again the day after Jesus …

And the rest is written ….

 

 

 

The intro

Hey I ‘m curious  what’s your name.

I’m curious  I know he’s your man I know

He’s the one you hold dear and as for me I’m

Curious if you want me girl.

I know he has your night but I just want your days.

Tell him your out with friends meet me at the park and

I will be there waiting for you . With flowers in hand.

I know he’s your man but I’ll settle for your lover.

I just want to make you mine. He can fill your pockets he can

Fill your hungers but I can fill what he can never and that’s no lie.

The abyss that is your heart I can fill.

I’m curious if  you would tell me what’s on your mind.

I never had a crush like this before…

 

 

Like me  D@rkchild the Great

I never had a crush like this..

The crush reborn  as I watch you

I wonder if you’ve ever been with a man

Like me

 

I remember the first time

I told you I’d could blow your mind.

You told me you’d never fall for me .

And I replied what if I touch you here

What if I kiss you here

What if I whisper sweet things in you ear

Two months passed and as we laid there 

One night you reached over and looked in my

Eyes and said I’ve loved you from the first time my eyes

Meet yours. I was afraid to let you know that I was yours

But now  I know that being yours is all I ever wanted.

 

 

You’re my favorite girl

365 days a year and every day I think of you

And all I want to do is hold you and adore you

You’re my world in this world .

Your every thing a man could want

Your smile bring joy to my sad eyes

Your lips fill the hunger with me as I mine touch yours.

And when I think of your eyes I think of the sky for I never tire of looking into them

You’re my favorite girl .

Laugh for me so that my ears may hear a symphony 

Tell me you love me so that I may know what love feels like.

I want to be your man and I hope you feel the same

You’re the only one I want.

 

 

 

Upgrade ya…. A d@rkchild spin off

You need a real man in your life.

You need a soldier a man with out fear

Thus its time for the  upgrade.

I have no equal no man can match the

Strength the love I hold with in ….

 

 

 

King Kong

The monster lives the giant with

In the man the silver back walks.

You can hear me before you see

So tell your man no tell your mother

That the monster lives. That the monster

Will return for his . My Jane goes by another

Name but this version will not end the same .

For I know the wrongs and I know the rights .

So make way for King Kong…

 

D@rkchild the monster aka Kong…..

 

 

Brandon,

For better or for worst I’m sorry you feel this way

I’m sorry that I for all I’ve done I can’t undo the wrongs

That you’ve done . I’m sorry the words have evaded me

The answers to your wants your needs. It may be time to

Realize that there are no answers to the issues in your life.

And maybe you have to deal with them deal with them day

After day . Time won’t change them time will only make them older and as time goes on may they slowly be forgotten.

Forget her forget them both the joy and the pain . For you are but a bitter memory to her and them.

Sorry

 

 

Lord they think there fooling you

Lord I know there is a thin line 

I know even I have tried to mask your eyes

And after this I know a lot of people won’t like

Me anymore and maybe  they will never talk to me again

But maybe they will have mercy on a sinner like me.

Maybe they will give me another chance.

For I am just a sinner like them

 

 

There are no winners.

 

I have witnessed I have lived being to the one . Not getting what you want no matter how hard your heart wills it to be something’s just can’t be. And when you’re the one that will not allow it to happen are you the one in the wrong . for not making someone else’s dream come true.  Maybe.

 

 

To have it all means nothing but to live in the dreams of another is a treasure in its self. And for two to live in each others dreams is what I call love. a Darkchild thought..

D@rkchild.  2.0 upgrade

I find my self wondering day to day . About the wrongs and right  . About tomorrow about the moments that precede me . The moment before I pick up that phone the moment before I knock on the door waiting for a reply. And then there are days I wonder not . Then there are days I let go of it all the days where I care for nothing. My heart would be full of fear fear of loosing it all . Not just the materialistic things the feeling the gift bestowed upon me . The sight the wisdom to know right from wrong  what makes me , me   Two years have passed and the chains still bind me to this keyboard the chains rattle the chain weigh heavy. My hands mental broken for the weight of my words crush every feeling every dream I had. Tear wash way the blood tears wash away  the pain that seeps from every stroke of every key . Every word every written under the D@rkchild ego .

 

 

Let me explain… the D@rkchild theory

Let me explain why I’m no longer around

Let me explain why I can’t see you why I my words to you

I cannot share. Let me tell you why I  can’t talk to you

Why my feelings for you must die.

It started off  like this

I’ve seen a lot of ups and downs

And made a lot of mistakes. But you

You will always be the love of my life.

You never left my side. Since the beginning

Of time you never doubted me  faith with out

Fear is how you raised me . Praise your name

Even though those you share blood hate you .

In life you always chose me  and I you .

Sometimes I reminisce and wonder how I made

It this far. My best friend showed me the world

Blinded my eyes not you showed me the worlds

Joy along with its pain . You’re the closest one to me

In a world of strangers.

So in the end let me explain  why I’m no longer around

Let me explain why I can’t see you why my words to you I

Cannot share . for when you left me part of me died and part of me

Will never return

Goodbye…

 

 

 

So sick

( spin off of a song)

So sick of the voices so sick

I

Can’t stand to here them bring up your name as if I never

Existed with out you . I stand in the mirror two arms two eyes

Ears checking my back checking to see the part of me that was yours.

The part that they see missing when they see me when the link it to you .

So sick

I lived before you I lived after you …

D@rkchild 2.0 exclusive…

 

Naked II

 

I can’t help but want what I can’t have.

I  look for your smile I look for you every day.

And as I stand there watching you I’m afraid to look

In your eyes. For I fear you will see that I am excited.

Excited to see you excited to hear your voice. In  a moments

Time I stand there enchanted with you hips with your thighs.

And the way shake when you walk bye I can’t help but want you .

Baby

I’m D@rkchild and I can’t deny.

They say the eyes are the windows to the soul .

I look deep into your eyes hoping you will see what I see in you .

But I know I can’t have you . The world sees fit to keep us apart.

I haven’t wanted anything as much as I want you .

And if given the chance to place my lips against yours i’d die in your arms

As your lips pressed up against mine as my arms slowly lock and intertwine with yours

Two shades never looked so good together.

 

 

Hearts break

Hearts break every fucking day  for better or for worst.

I write and write to make you understand .

Its been a year or two since I’ve loved another

Through the rain through the pain hearts break

Hearts break every fucking day and they are never the

Same . So many things you still don’t know even though

We loved even though were together through the joy and the pain

I can’t blame you if you want to leave

But you can’t blame for wanting to leave.

I tried to change my life for you but  didn’t care

As I caught you in the arms of another .

I knew I wanted you to leave .

Fuck you

No fuck him

I can’t even bring my mind to think about all the times

You were gone how many times were you in his arms.

How many times did u kiss me and then him how many

Times did u call me telling me you loved me as you laid in

His arms.

 

I’m sorry  

I’m sorry he started out as a friend and then feelings grew.

I’m sorry I  cheated on you I’m sorry I ended up in the arms of

Another. I love you and I know you love me and I know we can

Get through this . just give me a chance to make this up to you .

 

I don’t know if I can get over this . Is it over between you and him .

 

Yes…

I know how you can make it up to me. Bye walking out that door and never

Coming back ….

 

 

D@rkchild.... The goodbye….

Secret Love affair…  A true story….

The time was right the time was wrong

I wanted you and you wanted me you were his

And I was hers but you were on my mind .  It started

With a kiss  and from that kiss I was cursed ,cursed by your

Heart and when I couldn’t not have you I dreamt of you .

You’re a a Indian princess and I a king to be . And from that

Kiss you started a fire in my soul that couldn’t be controlled.

At first a kiss held the fires at bay but then it wanted more  I wanted

More . I wanted your mind I wanted your heart I wanted your touch .

As the fire slowly consumed you it grew burning my past burning yours.

And from the ashes a new world emerged not mine but ours. And as our world

Grew something from your world survived the fires.  It wouldn’t die  it wouldn’t  let

You live and then I awoke and your were gone and when I awoke

The fire grew dim and then years passed and it was you and you were to marry another

I remember that day I remember that day for I was all alone in a city of thousands. I was

Alone with out you .

 

D@rkchild...