Not the same.

She doesn’t look at me the same.

When her eyes lock the  flame I see not.

When she touches me the feeling I fell not.

We were strangers to friends to lovers to friends to strangers.

And strangers to enemies.  Every secret every story ever told

You used. To hurt me.

And now I know .

Its not the same.

 

 

 

 

Dirty

Let the rain fall on us both .

Let the  rain fall on the world we knew

Let tomorrow come and go .

Let all the pain go

The past let it go ..

He’s gone but I’m standing here  yes what we have is new.

Yes its young compared to the past.

But let it grow

Let it be more than what you had could ever be.

So as the rain falls

Let it wash away the footsteps of the past

And when you look back may it be but a memory .

And take my hand . and let me show you a path meant for two.

I know we may fall along the way but my hand and my heart will always be there to bring us back..

 

 

 

Graveyard

 

Grab a shovel and follow me .

Start digging.

Dry your eyes  

Dig and dig your grave for I know the secrets your mind holds.

Talk to the man above.

And I’ll polish my steel as his words won’t break my will.

And when your dead and gone know its me who will cover your soul.

Its me who will love all that you own.

Its done now get in say your goodbyes say your sorry’s. But you won’t get out you won’t walk this earth again.

One last breath and it will be your demise.

And with the rumble of the clouds above so the smoke feels the air as the shell bounces of the ground rolling into your tomb.

And with that done I grab the shovel and scoop

And scoop as I bury myself. The past… is the past live dead and gone…

 

 

 

The Shower

Meet me in the shower and dedicate about an hour.

Let me pin you against the wall. Let me kiss you let me whisper

Do you want me.

Do you need me.

And all I ask is you say

Yes.

Yes I want you

Yes I need you .

You can kiss me  but I can’t promise I’ll whisper .

But as stand in your arms. Tell me how much you want me.

No matter how hard I try I can’t go a day with out you .

I can’t breathe with out you . and as I stand afar I lust for you .

I dream of you .

But no matter how much I tell you .

Let me show you .

 

 

Everything

You are everything.

And everything in me.

Its all because of you .

I’m never down .

You take me away from the pain I knew.

you are  my

everything. And everything in me is you .

and for me to not want you bye my side. Every night and day

I would be but a fool not to get down on bending knee. And say

Will you be my wife.

My everything the love you give is but a dream come true.

Hold me .

Love me 

And let me be your everything.

 

 

The One

 

As I stand looking out into a see of people .

I ask my self whose hand will I take how do I chose

A person that will never let go of me .

How do I chose a person who is ready for the weight of my heart.

I’ve reached out time and time again. Pulling back

Years of pain. Some it nearly killed me getting over. Some

Came and left.

As I sit here again reaching out for the One.

 

The arena of death .

Some call it home  some call it earth.

Some call it mother some call it the third rock.

But I call it my tomb I call it the grave yard.

Where the good and the bad live hand in hand.

And the good fall to the hands of the bad every day

Some disappear never to be found. Some fall by the hands

Of the ones they love and trust .

I wonder which will take me..

As I sit here pulling the knives out of my back..

Bonnie & Clyde  the beginning

Leave the engine running … as she sits there in tears.

With my heart filled with rage. You cry out leave it be. Some things can be but this one I must settle. This one I must avenge. As her tears fall my heart bleeds. As her pain ignites my heart my darker side breathes again . as I disappear  back into my tomb for what happens next I pray I never remember. For the fire inside will have a victim. As evil comes closer and closer to the home of  the one who made my Bonnie cry..  I nock once twice  with a smile hiding the evil with in . he answers and as my smile turns sinister.. Blow after blow kick after kick as he tries to flee the scene. I follow blinded as he seeks refuge . Not knowing that his numbers are greater in the next room. Soon man after man turn the corner my fire is great enough to take one on one but as they combine to extinguish my flame. I’m left  wanting. And as he stands over me punching kicking. Threatening my life with a gun in my face. She emerges from the car fearful of my demise. And with out a though shell after shell comes from her hand . they all fall leaving but two me and her father… and with tears in her eyes… so does he fall…

As sirens echo in the background so are the sounds of us leaving…

 

A darko/Brandon

 

 

 

 

In life there are no heroes this I’ve learned but there are survivors.                                                              300 times I’ve thought about us . 300 times  I’ve wanted to be your hero . 300 times you’ve left me wanting as my 300 Tears have fallen. Along with my 300 dreams. Dreams of us dreams of the future. But how can the future be if your not willing to survive the past. If you let it defeat you then the future will never be yours.. And as you regret your actions Remember 300 Remember the last Remember 1 as there will be no other like me Remember that I was willing to endure it all. for you .   Brandon /Darkchild.

Growing Pains

I can’t live with you

I can’t live with out you

I’d be lying if I could breathe with out you

To have you is to hold you to

Hold you is the love you .

To let you go is to be empty

To be with out a purpose is to be incomplete

To see nothing in the abyss that is life you were

The light I followed loved and believed in .

 

The clock struck 12:25am and I woke to feel you no longer by my side.

And then I knew.

As I got up looking for you I heard you in the bathroom. Whispering to another. As I listened only to hear your cheating to hear you say .

How you long to be in his arms.

And if he could wait you’d take all I had and give it to him.
And the child you bare is his seed.

As my heart drops I say I don’t want to know. As I return to bed you soon follow. And as you return to my side. You kiss me and whisper I love you .

And with those words tears fell down my check .

My heart can’t take it anymore….

 

 

 

Cookies

This is meant for me.

 

From afar I long for it near I reach for it .

And asleep I dream of it.

To stand eye to eye to slowly

Peal off every layer  till only you remain.

And with the longing touch the kiss I beg of you

To fill the hunger that lies inside.

And as I lay there by your side I no not where to begin.

With a kiss with a touch . and as time passes I feel your warmth

I feel your wants. As your body calls out to me.

It answers my desires to be one with you .

And  as my face disappears into the darkness.

You scream  you moan for more and more.

And as time passes your wants turn to lust. And lust turns to addiction.

I to want you and two become one ….

 

 

Birthday …

 

As I sit there surrounded by friends and family.

The cake is brought before me. And you reply make a wish.

And then I know my wish . As I close my eyes and make a wish

Then blow them out. Its you I wish for its you I want.

And as your pass and we age its you I see every year its you I wish for every year.

 

Come and hold me through the night.

Come and lay by my side and tell me.

Brandon.

I will I want to be there when your eyes close and I want

To be there when they open . And if you should dream of love I want to be the one in your dreams .

I just want to be by your side I just want to

Stand by your side for a life time.

And if I should fall before you know that

Its me crying out to you when the sky turn dark

Its me holding you as the wind blows. And its me kissing you when the sun radiates down on you .

But as long as I breathe

Know that I want to be the one.

To stand face to face with you in my arms.

I want to be the one that makes your heart race and race.

I want to be the only one to know what it feels to kiss your lips

I want

I want to be the only one to  know

How you feel inside and out.

 

Br@ndon.

 

A dream works production…

We can be if you let me .

We can be if you just try .

These are the words I tell you as tears

Fall from my eyes. As you let go of my hand.

We can be

We can be what you had and much more.

I can be the sun the moon the stars.

The air that flows through your hair .

The love the gives your heart its life.

The hero to your world .

But if you let go .

All I will be is a thought you have every now and then .

A what if I would have never let go .

A I do care for him.

A I miss you.

A

I love you.

 

D@rkchild/Br@ndon

its coming

Listen to my words lil Brandon

I can see you’re sad when I look in the mirror deep inside

You want to cry .

But I can’t hold you through the night.

I can’t make things better I can’t lie to you .

And tell you things will change.

So don’t cry when you talk to her and the feelings

You want aren’t there .

Don’t cry when she walks away into the night

And when her face fades from your memory its ok .

For she was but a dream and dreams come and go .

 

 

Like the phoenix  my death is but a moment in my life . For when i fall. My rise is soon to come about. I've fallen in life as a     man i've fallen as a friend a lover a husband a son a brother . But through it all no matter how dark the storm no matter how painful the emotion. I rise D@rkchild .           So when the ashes of my death ignite know that I will once again rise. and fear me if you put me there for the fires burn bright for the fires burn hot. Br@ndon

Its finally over .

the end of a 6year life ....

Call me old fashion.

 

I just want to .

I just want to wake in the morning and see her.

I just want to sit on the couch and hold her as the movie plays.

Is this silly of me.

If I just want to tell her I love her.

Is it silly of me to be driving down the road and turn and see her next to me.

I just want to give up every girl I used to know .

I want to start over with her.

And when my day goes bad

I just want to call her and know she’s there for me .

I just want her to say that she feels the same.

So that one day I can say .

I just want to marry you .

 

 

Loose your self.

Its 2am tears are falling. My palms are sweating my eyes blood shot and watering from the thoughts from the vision of you visions of me .

As I hold a hand full of blue and orange pills in my hand. As I take one after one wanting the pain to erase wanting the visions to disappear. And minute after minute comes and goes. And visions grow they speak to me with my eyes closed. I hear them as I hold my hands over my ears. As my heart races and races. I rollover on my back and the light fades to darkness and the sounds disappear.

And I awake but I’m in a dream on the verge of death before the door and written on this door is the past.

I stand there knowing what lies behind the door. And I know I must brave the past so that the future will be mine at last. And the door opens and I see … then my mind awakes from deaths door.

 

 

 

 Victory .

The sun doesn’t shine forever

But as long as its here we might as well shine together.

And when you read my words know that my

I’m undefeatable

For victory is all I know.

Break my heart leave me wanting leave me

In tears but know victory is still mine.

Its all fucked up now.

Regardless if I fall regardless  I don’t get right up

In the end

I’ll still win.

For she is the one that saved me.

The one that believed in me when you didn’t

The one that wanted to stand by me .

The one that

Loved me.

 

 

Meet me

Meet me half past 12 in the parking lot.

Leave then engine running I don’t have time.

I just want to see you I just want be close.

Keep your feelings secret but let your body tell me.

I’m no amateur so let the windows fog. Let the music play as we play

Show me yours and I’ll show you mine.

As soon as the door shuts you’re in my lap

This I can’t deny

As you grind back in forth I can’t help but grab your thighs

As you moan you want me inside ya.

I can’t deny the wants of my one and only

I can’t deny my own wants my own needs.

As two become one.

 

 

How many people can say they have a picture of themselves the day there life would forever change.

And if you  knew how it would all end. Would you still make the same choice. You did that day would you deny the end result. Would you try and change it . or live it and accept it for a part of your life.

 

 Go get her … .The twins.

D@rkchild & Br@ndon....

D@rkchild

Work all day and play all night…

Point her out and believe this I’ll get her.

She wore a ring on her left one over from the left.

Diamonds and gold she said yes she would marry him.

But I knew better as she showed me I laughed .

As she showed me she said

D@rkchild, Just because those around you deny love doesn’t  mean that love is with out life. It lives in those who truly want it . who truly believe that it can be. So stray not to the dark side . and know that joy is but a person away . Believe and give not into you lust. Brandon.

only because someone else didn’t ask.

So that night my phone rang.  Can I come over she replied as I laughed what about the ring what about the promise. The I love you the marriage to be. She said can I ,I  laughed and said  sure..

The door opened an hour later with a girl and a hunger in her eyes.

And now I take over.

Come on in 5 mins passed and she was taking off the clothes tugging at my shorts. Ring still on her finger I looked and shook my head. And they say love exist .

 

D@rkchild

 

This is the life. This is  my life.

Work all day and play all night…

I see her walk by she looks at me .

And then I know she mine tonight.

 

Can I come closer would you mind.

 

The fire burns again the fire burns ever so bright as I look in your eyes. And as my lips touch yours I’m consumed by the flames of desire my heart radiates with the thoughts of lust. As my mind plays out every move.

I’m drawn to you like a moth to a flame.

So I ask can I come closer would you mind.

 Its all started with a  kiss a few days prior

Now ending with the embrace of two .

Soon to be one.

With every kiss the flames grew with every kiss the hunger grew.

More and more my heart and soul demanded.

And as time passed her hunger grew.

Soon the appetite for each other could be held back.

As clothes came off it was clear she would be mine. This night of nights she would be one with me.

 

Br@ndon.

War of the minds… 

A  D@rkchild &Brandon…              

                 Conflict.

 

Take a journey through my minds eyes.

Its you I wish dead because there’s not room for us both.

And as I sit back and watch you pour your heart out I laugh.

As days pass and the phone never rang I smiled.

And when you wanted your own life I begged for you to do it .

For its me the king of kings that should rule this soul.

Listen to the tears as they pound the floor listen to the screams as the echo off the wall.

She loved you not she cared not for you don’t you see. Look at it and envy look at it and know its not yours.

Scream to god but he can’t hear you .

I can feel your heart beating as you know its time to die.

Let go and let me be.

 

Do you see what I see through my minds eye.

My death will never come its you that will pass . its you that will fall.

And laugh all you want as my heart cries out it grows stronger with every tear. And when the phone doesn’t answer its proof to move on. And yes I’ve begged for my life’s end but to be a king you must have a queen for a mans completion is based on his better half.

And she may have never loved me but she taught me what love was and what it isn’t . And I envy no man for time is all I have and love will find me.

While god may not hear me its not him I yearn for its her and she will hear my calls and know that I want her.

And its you I’ll let go of as her hand I hold on to.

 

 

 

D@rkchild VS Br@ndon......

“Falling back in to my old ways”

In She loves me  she loves me not.

Go

 fuck the feeling you have . for it’s a lie

Wrapped in hope . dream of the feeling you will never touch.

 

Touch the impossible and you shall come up empty handed.

God like you wish but man you are.

Turn not water into wine . the seas shall never part. And on water you shall never walk.

D@rkchild

Go

The feeling you have is a truth amongst it all.

Intertwined in the soul of man on touchable bye

The heart of another .

And look in your hands even though they are empty they are full.

For look not in your hands but in your heart.

And with this you shall be envied by the angels above.

And then you will be a god amongst men .

And care not about water into wine but know you can turn pain into  love and walk not on water for you shall be in the heavens above.

 

Brandon .